I'm going through a rough time right now. Not only am I sick with a cold, but I've been suffering with sodium overdose as metnioned in my last post — but also actually a crazy hormone fluctuation. And I just thought I would mention that incase anyone was actually worried about me when they saw my latest lingerie modelling photos — because I thought it wise to draw attention to the postiive side of being all swolen right now all over, MASSIVELY enlarged breasts !!!! And I dont' know if I ever recall in my life such a major breast swell. And I do understand if peopel read what I said, attributing that to sodium and thought "Yeah RIGHT" haha. But that's right, but I don't like to talk a lot about my hormones in public, just cause it's considered a bit private I think. But I dont' mind just saying here all tucked away only for those more honestly interested in my health.
Cause I think this level of breast swelling which is so much greater than I've ever experienced (going from too small for an A cup to massively filling perfectly a B cup — and I cannot believe how enormous they look now to me) definitely signals the necessity of HRT and I would hope that would be in the near future. I have to try to work that into my budget, but right now I really am maxed on my budget and late on rent actually right now for paying it a month early which is always when it's due in my mind. Right now, HRT is not an immediate option but I've at least told myself, it looks like at least maybe when the motorhome is paid off in a couple years maybe at the latest I could do that. At the latest.
And I can't believe the swelling of these breasts (lol). I'm so relieved that it's more the breasts and not like literally that I've gained tons of fat. I feel so bad for women aging and dealing with gaining fat, as well as these crazy hormonal changes. No — I have gained a little bit of fat but I don't really think it's anywhere as bad as it looks and feels. As my metabolism keeps kicking in more over time from stablizing my calories I believe I'll lose that back.
But the thing really is, I do wonder a bit about my hormones and what's caused this right now. Like before, I did metnion that because my sleep was all over the place and I seemed to be getting less hours and sleep quality, that was worrying me about how that might affect my hormones which I need in order in order to keep organizing my metabolism into better shape. And funny thing is, it totally worked to post that blog and immediately after posting it, my sleep went into perfection. I now naturally fall asleep around 9pm and wake up like around 6am, like I'm getting around 7 or 8 hours of sleep. The timing is approximate, it's basically incredibly deep sleep wtihout interruption and so much recouperation time. That's obviously looking logical to the fact that I've been sick and not just the post, but I do notice posting can have this effect too haha.
Anyway regardless of the sleep improving, it's after that happened that I experienced this mostly. It may hve. been starting to build towards it though in the time when sleep was bad. I haven't even goten arround to asking ChatGPT more about this, but this has totally caused me to become much more curious about how these premenopaulal hormonal shifts seem to function exactly. Cause the thing is, miraculously, the signals that my metabolism is improving to do with hormones are happening - sex drive is in good order, and I'm surprised though by that, if I have hormone problems right now. Also, hunger is increasing, also a sign of metabolism building. So I din't know what's going on with my breasts.
A part of me wants to seek help for enormous breasts (lol). Hahaha. I mean they are sore as well though but I do say it's a joke because they are nice of course. But I figure it's pretty normal and common and nothing to panic about, just something that goes on. I am going to research and finally learn way more about hormones just as soon as I like can — I'm very busy and not feeling my best while sick, but I'll get to that for the next level.
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