August 2nd ⨺ The Sentimenal Chapter 27 / John Lennon Project From the Descending Passage Finally Got Somewhere

I totally understand that mental breakthroughs like huge eureka moments and sudden bursts of clarity with powerful overviews of previous life events etc, are quite common for "good days" in suspended relief from chronic stress. I don't automatically assume larger more permanently scaled reasons for those kinds of days. But the series of breakthroughs I've been having really have a particular quality to them which to me, actually suggests the brujeria weakening. 

Previously, I noticed this because I noticed some very worn in mental blocks from so many years old were breaking apart, revealing much overview of my life and important new perspective, which matched other times when I was certain brujeria had cleared as explained by Ayahuasca. Because, you know, Ayahuasca is really into seeing things on that type of a level of sorcery being an explanation for bad events, and magic and miracles being a prominent reality, and teaching the way the universe works like in such a spiritual manner so as to creatively design complex healing approaches that expand capacity beyond the typical human baseline framework.

And now there has been another experience like that, this time in a fascinating way that illuminates topics of special interest for me to do with Jared Leto. Again it's like certain blocks in my mind and emotions that I've always associated with brujeria that had been stopping me from making progress seemed removed, thus illuminating a whole longer timeline of events in such a way as to blow my mind at how simple and perfect everything has been and cause breakthroughs. I have a certain way of knowing intuitively that I'm on the right path, but sometimes it makes no sense to follow my intuition and I feel illogical to do so. Yet always when I experience a healing it's full of aha moments that show just how smart I was to be so-called illogical, which is only how it appeared — not how it really was. 

So it seems so fitting that I would have revelations about Jared, and one of many which I'm very happy to say seems to be coming along is a creative block that I've had since like around say 2019 / 2020 which was mentioned in the Entrance and Descending Passage Stage of this Timeline. It's the problem of a creative art project I've been wanting to do about Jared's movie Chapter 27 (which recounts the story of John Lennon's murder by Mark David Chapman) and how this relates to my work on The 72 FACETS (IN 144), regarding John Lennon and some very specific studies of interest. I really had an intuition that this issue would be gloriously resolved as part of my escalating journey of becoming closer to Jared as I progressed towards sae more in this pyramid. I just knew it. I saw this as one of the beautiful flowers I will see along a gorgeous flowering path towards sae. Or a path of many treasures. 

Treasure might be the word — it's like a gem like a diamond of The 72 FACETS (IN 144) which are meant to be the 144 FACETS of a diamond representative of biological life and the workings of our branch of the media. 

It's just a huge intuition and deep deep creative artistic dream of mine to one day present the theory very compellingly that not only Kurt Cobain, but also John Lennon may be alive. In that, I see the movie Chapter 27 (which the number is strangely alike to the 27 Club) as a major key in that dream. But unlike Kurt Cobain, I don't have sensible and pragmatic material to offer yet in order to make a clear argument for this view. Now, FACET 1(73) ◊ ORIGINAL of The 72 FACETS certainly is the core of all my work, and provides explanation that Kurt is alive so well that it would definitely make me wonder if other stars have also faked their deaths. But I just haven't felt called to offer an argument in my artwork to propose so, and in fact I'm not that interested in the 27 Club right now aside from John Lennon. At least for now. 

Anyway, the reason I'm explaining all this is to explain just how big of a block this has always seemed with the John Lennon issues. It was mentioned on the timeline, I had a big brujeria problem on this John Lennon and was so intrigued with Jared about Chapter 27 and it always felt like destiny that this would get resolved. And what I didn't mention though, too, is that I know Krist Novoselić would love to see that happen. Krist is in a band with a guy from Soundgarden and sae would be so honoured and fascinated to see my work on Chris Cornell. So like whatever lol, not like anyone cares that much, but it's just so many things that would rock for me and for Krist and NIRVANA are kinda plugged up by this John Lennon problem. 

Well there's a lot of way more severe problems than that in my life, and that's the least of them in some ways, but it's a very sentimental and special, beautiful thing between me and Jared. The thing I've gotten from Jared in sae's spiritual messages to me which I know were real, always involved stuff like promises of the future that every artistic dream I've ever had for something special with Jared will one day gloriously come true. And I've been reading lots of quotes lately from Jared about making your dreams come true — it's a Jaredism. So that's why it's so beautiful and special that one of my dreams is to become close friend with Jared saeself haha — cause it's up to Jared to be part of that and sae IS very into beautiful dreams coming true (lol) <3% )) But now I say the deeper dream too, as you could guess knowing me, also involves lots of incredible art. 

So what happened is, Fred then later ransacked Robert's apartment to steal the diaries back off sae in a mysterious strange twist of fate. They had become a subject of great monetary value and this began a war of idiological debate as to weather the information should be filtered, censored, and partially published with privacy to John, or it should be all laid out to the public fully unauthorized. Fred wound up publishing the unauthorized version, The Last Days of John Lennon: A Personal Memoir, while Yoko Ono hired Robert to write the authorized version, with a softer and more selective style of what to allow openly. Fred was charged with grand larceny by Yoko for stealing the diaries, and Yoko reclaimed the originals, but Fred was only dinged with probation and still made money off the publishing of the book.

To this day, regardless of Fred's account that it was faithfully published accurately to what was inside, I still question if it was accurate from Fred despite the claim — because not only were there no photographs of John's original handwriting or any guarantee, but also Yoko Ono would not be one to necessarily reveal Fred's lies. To do that would involve making certain information public which sae has explicitly mentioned is to remain private. However, it is my theory that Yoko knew that John had faked sae's death, and therefore the reason why much of this remained private was because of how telling it might be to that. And perhaps Fred had also fully or partially grasped these paradigms of the plans, and understood how to censor these secrets.

I know with my whole heart and soul that Sean and Julian would do the most mindblowing job of artistically working with this information with every spirit of John's highest visions and intentions, but still — Yoko has really been so special to me. As I'm sure you can understand. So that's been such a stress upon the burden of this blocked art project. 

Still, I understand that sounds like a bit of an overshoot or ridiculously grand scheme to get in touch with Yoko and convince sae about this, so I'd be very content with just doing a first part version of the John Lennon FACET without the diaries yet exposed. The thing is, in this first version, it could lay out the information so beautifully and powerfully that this might convince and flatter Yoko that it would have been John's will to have this come out through UNITY LIFE. Anyway, UNITY LIFE's not that famous, and it wouldn't be like it would go viral if it was just on UNITY LIFE anyway (lol). I mean the plan for the first version was to make that attempt, to create a layout of something so ordered and well presented that it would look good to Yoko. But I've had nothing to show sae. 

The theory I will offer about Mark Chapman will be that sae was a simulated reality created by John Lennon for these purposes. This connects with the so-far unfinished KEYS 13 & 14, SIMULATED PEOPLE AND PLACES.  A human being (within environment of interconnection) experienced and perceived by others as just as real as any person, but who is not actually there. I was talking to a friend today about my idea that Jared Leto is a simulated reality and this very smart friend of mine did not understand what I meant. I'll have to message sae back to explain more, it's like in the Matrix only there's no need to "plug into the matrix", this is something the brain is capable of and genetic functioning will provide for, which psychedelics provide a lot of answers about. And this can theoretically happen with say only one person and not others, or one place or event and not others. And this allows us to release the haunting gravity of the idea that Mark was innocent. 

Mark Chapman may have been guilty of many other crimes within sae's lifetime that were never accounted for, and we'll never really be able to become certain of that history. Sure, perhaps Mark deserved to be imprisoned for other unnamed crimes anyway, removing the weight of the scheme from John. Imagine if John Lennon's body was a simulated reality and police were fooled to think Mark was guilty. This also takes account for other gravity of the matter. What if there had been an impersonator look-alike of John such as hinted in the Beatles conspiracy of Paul McCartney look alikes such as Billy Shears? Someone guilty for many things who deserved to be shot for John Lennon's purposes? Well, the situation is grave, and yet we'd really never be able to confirm these details or understand a thing about it, so it's best if we'd say John would use a simulation reality of sae's body. 

And sae's not alone. There are many incredible artists completely absorbed in these topics. But the thing is, for Jared to have played Mark Chapman really means that sae got deeply into the role and fully embodied the place of Mark Chapman. And again and again, in Jared's roles, it becomes so evocative to realize that it's not just about how Jared pragmatically acted the character — it's about the deeper context behind why Jared was casted in the role. As a powerfully successful artist with such a great pick of what movies to be involved with, Jared's had the chance to really destroy the mission of making sure all sae's characters would be so much more well understood if one understood Jared personally aka as an artist on the overall.

You know it's like Jared's art is "on the soul level" so to speak. We don't know much about Jared's inner thoughts, feelings and personal private life of course, but the evidence is handed to us through art, for those who are willing to look deeply. Though Jared's roles are often the striking opposite of sae's own character, that in itself speaks volumes. Huge points are made in the art that could say so much about Jared if it was properly understood. It's not literally the same from Jared to sae's character, but it's a continuum. And again, Jared's also a simulated reality like Mark Chapman, and has invested so deeply into delving into this character who in real life was a big fake, a con artist, and a liar who would present fake ID — making it an identity theme on a level that works perfectly here. Simulated realities of people are all about these double edged questions of identity. Double identities, or false identities, or finding the true within the false. 

So I'll explain how it was done with the brujeria. So, myself, like so many others, I do have sexual trauma. But thankfully, I don't have the type of sexual trauma that would prevent me from taking an interest in male stars that I enjoy, regarding their expertise in behavioural science. Like you know, I see them as resourceful about human resources and friends, and able to predict others' motivations and what would make them tick, in order to predict what the best friends and associates would be, even on a small scale. They obviously have amazing skills with empathy because they are making music and other forms of art designed to appeal to the masses, so this involves understandings of psychology. I'm in awe of this. Personally, I've always delighted in the fact that I can tell my favourite stars are all huge experts in this field.

Normally I would take it further and even say they are ultimate masters of it. In fact I have spiritual beliefs that they are actually like Gods in this way. It's very deeply worn in for me to always expect them to be the experts on this topic. 

But you see, the brujeria has been trying to stop me from thinking those kinds of things about Jared, and the reason why is because the brujos have in their mind a picture of what sexual trauma should typically look like, which involves missing those subteties in male behaviour. And so what they've been trying to do is fabricate a story around me and Jared in order to damage our connection, one which misportrays me as sexually traumatized in such a way which I am not. The type of sexual trauma the brujeria is attempting to fabricate is a kind which is sexist against men, assuming things like "Men don't empathize with women unless they are trying to get sex", or "Men only try to control women into having sex with them, so that's the only reason they pay attention to their motives, and even then, very little". 

Like OMG, it's super important to me and my life, not just this John Lennon thing. But yes, this unlocked information about Jared's assistant Jnana which I needed. I had mentioned actually in the cry for help post and blogs there that I had felt assaulted about Jnana by the brujeria so terribly. I even said, I think that is a block to the John Lennon thing actually. Well now it's healed — but along with it, soooo many crucial important understandings. 

So, I guess I'll explain the main study that I had about Jared which revealed like this master code or whatever. I remembered back to many years ago, long before I took any majorly significant level of interest in Jared, at a time when I was only rarely and randomly exposed to sae's content. So this was at a time before the brujeria started interfering so intricately. I randomly saw somewhere that Jared was doing a live chat, where countless people would join and he'd keep inviting people off the chat to join sae in video conversation. You could apply to join, and I did apply but didn't get accepted. But anyway, I was very observant of Jared and a lot of fascinating things occurred to me. 

I realized that it seemed that the people sae had chosen to join the conversation seemed already checked out and previously researched, and these were somehow informed choices, perhaps assumedly random choices but I didn't think so. And there are two people who joined who I felt go well as a comparison. One person was actually a group — it was an adorable and super dorky family from some country somewhere who were all being silly and wild on the camera, and they really weren't too great looking but they sure were loveable and sweet. It was a feel good moment about traditional families in other countries. I forget which country now. 

For example, beauties like Thet Thinn are clearly one of Jared's commercial statements about image. It's not just any model, it's like models with particular styles of looks, more precisely. I've always noticed that, it's like a Jared-ish aesthetic brand even to down to what women around him often look like. Generally. 

So the way it hit me intuitively by the way that Jared spoke to this woman, it seemed as though sae was trying to stir up a sense of wonder, awe, and magic to this obscure biography of sae's with this being like an image of a supermodel, yet someone of a totally different background. Thinking of it today actually, I think it's even more acute how much I get from that idea of like stringing together look alikes in a world and story, and then it being so noted upon that the person is not the same person at all despite looking the same (lol). But the thing which helped me in my study was realizing that it seemed in retrospect like Jared was pointing out that this person has a unique psychology, and I feel it was psychology especially which was being impressed here, not even looks. 

And you see, the thing is, Jnana, Jared's assistant, actually looks reasonably pretty similar to Thet Thinn, except sae's not quite as mindblowingly and shockingly extreme supermodel style, ya know? It's like a bit more of a softer and more gentle looking type face. Less extreme. More a comforting look. But still actually similar haha. And when I thought about all this put together, it made me realize suddenly that I have held huge beleifs about stars' abilities to predict behaviour, and be so incredible with psychology and behavioural science, so why haven't I applied that knowledge and understanding to Jnana and Jared's choice to hire sae? Because I was kinda stuck thinking of Jnana.

You see, what this made me realize is that I should buy Fred Seaman's book and actually read that, instead of just focusing myself on the authorized version of John's diaries. Previously, I had been offended by Fred's theft of the diaries from Yoko, and considered that Fred was on a rampage and trying to just steal and profit off John rather than having any respect. So I figured, don't support Fred's book then (lol). But now I realize, looking at the two pieces in combination will be absolutely necessary in order for me to finish my research. Because a big part of what it is I'm aiming to do with my piece is just fully analyse the diaries and decide what out of that might be revealing of how John faked sae's death.

And there was stuff about drugs, I bet, in Fred's. I'll have to see, but I did actually find it that in interviews John said sae was on heroin. And that's all completely interesting but my hope would be to find something in the diaries. There is something I'm particularly interested in and will have to search. So I'm sure that's the next step is to do the comparison check between the two at least. I might have a big inspiration of what I think the discrepencies and differences seem to indicate. Cause I do think Yoko's supposed concern about what should be public is not necessarily that honest, exactly, at least not in the straightforward sense that one woudl presume, just out of embarrassment, you know? 

Sae was just joking around about the fact that since Ashley and Manson are (or at least they appeared obviously, and it seemed so) sexually involved with each other, and yet the relationship is such that Ashley is free to also sleep with other guys of COURSE, since it wasn't monogamous obviously, then that creates the illusion that it's trafficking. The reason being, if Ashley sleeps with anyone in the media industry and gains affections of some media people, it could very likely and hilariously just so happen to be advantageous to Manson's ideals in the media, since Ashley is on sae's team and very like minded with sae. And in the industry, it's somewhat well known that quite often sexual favours are traded for rewards in the media, something which Manson doesn't do. But some do, and it's just knowledge of the industry (lol).

So it's whatever, if Ashley was genuinely attracted to any of the countless big players in the media who were frequenting around them, Manson would find that convenient to his goals very likely and yet absurdly funny that it makes sae look automatically like a pimp! When that's not true. And it's totally for sure Manson's style 10000% to joke around about that. Because if sae would joke around all the time about it, the thing is, that alarms everyone i the room to watch out for that bad thing that it could be misunderstood as such. Like that's not supposed to be the deal, but Manson's jokes are designed to indicate that it's especially not, cause just look at how unfortunate and weird that is that one might gather such a thing if it's not clarified (lol). When often sexual favours are traded without much discussion of the fact that this is the deal. So it's just incredibly awkward with these unspoken reasonings and ideas and guesses so common (lol). 

OK so that's almost everything. But one thing is, I did have the impression that more healing will be arriving and will fill in some blanks. So I decided to just write this as a Part 1 possibly, and if any more happens which seems connected to this I'll write the rest.