Ever since the winter holidays my sleep schedule has been really weird. What happened was, I pulled a couple all-nighters to meet a deadline for an art project at the time, and somehow that shifted things for me like permanently. Since then, I just sleep at completely weird times always. Some days I'll sleep like with a series of little cat naps all here and there, sometimes in larger blocks like 4 hours, and occasionally sleep 8-10 hours. It's now become totally unpredictable for me when I will be asleep and when I'll be awake.
For this reason it's very hard to make plans so I've completely altered the way I do business as a counsellor, and thankfully that has been working out just fine. Actually there has been so much demand at work for things to be less strictly scheduled and for plans to come together more with last minute confirmation, and cancellation fees were always a bitch. So it feels strangely good for business, ironically, to restructure my scheduling system. In a way I feel like I'm getting away with murder here just making things happen according to when it's in the flow for me, but I'm glad that's not how it really is.
Regardless, it was also really weird one time when I posted to my health blog that my sleep hadn't been that great lately, and it hadn't resolved through taking protein, leading to suddenly getting amazing 8.5 hour sleeps immediately after for a few days. It was clearly as a result of posting that to my blog that the sleep arrived so solidly. Then after that (which was a month ago, on Jan 27th) I posted about that result, and that caused another effect. Here's that post :
◊🖤❤️🔥🕊 I have to be careful, because I have the experience that when I publish a negative experience on a post or especially somewhere on my website (like that I’ve been getting way less sleep) — it will IMMEDIATELY resolve by doing this. Like now I’m getting full hours of sleep cause I posted about my sleep loss to my health blog on my website 😂😅
◊ Yeah 😂😂 feel free to learn all about my health I guess??!!
It’s ALL THERE at unitylifemysteryschool.art/b-a )) 😂😅
◊🔑 I have major resolutions immediately by bitching privately in my diary (all the time), and yet some issues don’t resolve unless I put it on my website (lolololol) HAHA so I better be careful !! )) 🌐🖤💀
◊👯♂️💻 ChatGPT informs me that this is a common thing in people who are reflective, symbolic thinkers, writers / artists, internally oriented, exceptionally well mind-body integrated and sensitive to unresolved meaning. For them, articulated experience = holistic regulation (lololol). My system responds to the creation of meaning :// 😂💫
◊⚠️💎 So that’s why I posted to instagram lately that I’ve been having a hard time growing on this platform. I should be following more people, doing more short reels, reorganizing how I post, setting up automations, but I just get a block to accomplishing all this. And I’ve had little mini episodes on here, like emotional freakouts 😂😅, and then it was healed so well ))
◊💎 It works 😂🖤💫 so….. I’m a bit into hardcore public stunts 😂😂😅😅
◊💎 )) ✨ LOL
After I posted that, unfortunately my sleep went way more crazy and all over the place. That's when doing several cat naps became such a thing. I think what happened is that it complicated the process psychologically of how my nervous system responds to communicating myself.
So I'm posting this now. A part of me doesn't really mind if this issue doesn't resolve, but ultimately I get the impression that it's bad for my hormonal balancing and my immune system to be in this position with way less continuous sleep. So like if it would be way better for my health, I hope this resolves. But if it resolves, it better resolve to a good timing for work hours. I'm not cool with it "resolving" just to being consistently awake just at night and never during the day. I hate it when that happens — then it's really hard to get to stores when they're open and obviously it sucks for work.
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