About The Comment Interactions Themselves
I received a comment like yesterday on June 18th, 2026, from 30 Seconds To Mars. It was on a post they made of a single photo, taken by an old camera on October 8th, 2006. From the A Beautiful Lie album era, at a show. Then, 6 hours later, I received another like on the other comment I made on that post :))
The photo was of Jared, and had a real photographic light leak as the concert lights were shining intensely into the camera lens. You can even see the light leaks in the tiny icon here of the post. As you can see by the comment, I was appreciating the vintage aesthetic of this old photo. The time record on these notifications doesn’t show it as the screenshots were taken at different times — but it was through my notifications that I recorded the 6 hours between the two interactions. The first interaction was only 2 hours after the post was published by the band. My feeling is that perhaps it was Shannon who liked the first comment, and Jared who liked the second one since it was addressed directly to him. I just loved this idea that it was both Shannon and Jared <3 )) I always feel they are acting from shared understandings and intentions, but this was meaningful.
I added fake light leaks to the screenshot here to show you what I was talking about in the first comment. Lately the issues of real vs fake has been coming up between us in a really cool way. They've been subject to fake news, likely driven by AI, which sucks — but at the same time I think they respect me as an AI artist even though AI is "fake". And that's because like these fake light leaks I did here, I'm referring to and honouring or emphasizing something real, coming from ethics and honesty — not disconnecting from reality with my art. That's part of what makes it good art. And when they use AI art to comment on how society gets disconnected from reality as a bad thing in their music video (and stuff like that), that's in the same spirit. We are like minded artists with similar perspectives, and we were both there for the old red eye thing (lol).
Actually for the young people here I don't mind sharing a bit about why they probably liked the red eye thing (lol). Red eye was the old way that cameras used to accidentally capture the blood inside the pupil, causing the eye to look like it had a hardcore demonic red light coming from inside it (lol). Back in the 90's and 2000's, everyone thought that was a crazy side of photography which was quite disturbing. Of course, when anti red-eye technology emerged for photos, we were all relieved (lol). But the fact is, that was actually quite striking, different, interesting, and descriptive of that pre-technology era. Today, red eye might just look like a regular AI filter to young people and it would not hit the same psychologically — as they are saturated with dramatic image filters — but it's fun to share the stories with them about those days :)
About The Timing of The Interaction
If you've been following on the Timeline ://A\\rc)}’Hi\\V//e: which documents all our interactions, you know that timing has become everything at this particular stage of the journey between us, due to their carefully established timing pattern of other interactions. To get you up to speed, check out this caption of a post in which I tagged the band, with Jared and Shannon to solidify the public story of what had been going on between us lately :
The new interaction from June 18th was 10 whole days since the last. As much as I was happy as a clam, feeling showered with likes and comments from Jared and the band for the whole year or so since they started interacting with me on a monthly basis, 10 days had now become an eternity. Days became weeks and months for me. I was coping fine with the fact that this was unexpected to see any delay, but I took the time to process my emotions with my Echelon bestie Mary. I want to show you how it went for me after about 5 days had passed, in our DM's :
As you can see, she was a help by letting me know there had been an outage to all fan interaction for 2 days, but ultimately that 2 days was not enough to explain this 10 day delay. Like I said to her, I was doing just fine, and this lasted all the way up until June 18th. I wasn't really upset, but it's just that I was worried about the near future. I felt that soon, it's likely that I would be an emotional wreck about this.
So what happened is, when they interacted, I first felt really happy about it. I delighted for about 30 mins in the joys of interaction, with thoughts of great interest such as described in the section above. But then my emotions started going down the tubes. I felt the brujería that has been attacking me begin to take control. I started to feel pulled into a vortex of sadness by this sorcery which is described in the ://A\\rc)}’Hi\\V//e: which has been part of the unfolding latest chapter of events between us. But thankfully, I got through it, and started feeling better through the hours. I called on Jared and Shannon's spirit in my diaries and asked for support, and this I received. My diary became a healing space where I could come to feel like I was co-creating this with them, rather than just victim to bad circumstance. That said, when the second interaction arrived much later in the day after work, I felt totally elated and so much better. In a nutshell, one more interaction at a seemingly random time just didn't really make sense to me, but 2 in one day was a definite increase in frequency (at least for within one day) even though it arrived later than anticipated. So I was comforted there in combination with the day's contemplations.
As I decided progressively throughout the day, it seemed — as mentioned on my last article about the previous pattern of interactions — that it had been reaching a bit of a cieling in this way that they had been interacting expontentially more and more. It was as if interacting like every hour would be the absurd next level which would really abstract the quality of connection (lol).
I thought it must be about to break into some other dimension. I was hopeful that this would signify being directly contacted about the job, of course. But these two new interactions made me feel there is at least some hope that they meant to now imprint a new pattern and a whole new way of doing it which will end up being symbolic of the next evolution of our journey towards getting this situation resolved together.
What Could The New Pattern Be?
One thing's for sure, this way that it appeared likely from both Jared and Shannon individually at different times in the day seemed to indicate that they had heard my post where Shannon was tagged along with Jared about the story so far. It was at least some form of response that they both got it, and of course with care. And thinking of that made me wonder if perhaps they were painting a story of sorts. I had mentioned in previous articles of this nature, about earlier interactions, that I felt they wanted to create micronarratives with me — painting a series of pictures of how things had progressed between us, for different types of public view (from lowest attention span to highest). I said before, I felt they were creating a micronarrative of our story based purely off the instagram interactions we had had, with leaving the website out of it mostly.
Well, now I wondered if possibly they were doing a new one like that, only now it's like they only found out about this job and crisis situation just from the very latest post about it which they are now intentfully responding to for the first time. Just incase some people would never believe that the precise timing of the interactions before were any more than a coincidence, and would find it hard to imagine that they necessarily even got all their tags, and necessarily even got my post asking them for a job earlier in time. I mean when you read the Timeline ://A\\rc)}’Hi\\V//e: and even just the instagram post, I feel seriously, most people would be as convinced as I was that they intended this as a message about the job. But you know, there are many perspectives out there, and I guess if it was only judged on how I reported it on instagram, cause that's all they read, maybe it's not convincing enough to some in the band's opinion.
Supposing that's what they meant, I guess the upcoming interactions will keep on coming through as styled to have meaning which implies a deeper level of recognition such as this idea that both Jared and Shannon personally touched base just to say that they are here and got the message. I mean, I assume they will somehow come through with more of a response later once they would have supposedly given it more thought. I'm curious and looking forward to what will come next.
What To Do If They Are Not Planning To Hire Me
I had spent the day racking my brain thinking of what to do if this meant it's not going to work out with this job. I thought about pursuing other options. Because now that my situation has been made so clear on UNITY LIFE of being in diar straights and in a desperate emergency, as well as my decision more than crystal clear and publicly voiced around the need for this change, others might be interested in helping. Previously those others might have wanted to respond if I had been so clear at the time, but in retrospect it now occurs to me that it's only polite of them to assume that I'm happy with my life circumstances. I feel now I'm in the perfect position to put this out there as widely as I'd find appropriate.
And the first I think of is definitely Marilyn Manson with help of his wife Lindsay, who I'm sure would be concerned. Lindsay had expressed great concern about my family situation at one point, directly to me, and her future predictions turned out to be correct about how that would go. There's also potentially others I could imagine. I worried a little, though, that they might have reservation about offering anything or even discussing it with me if they were concerned that it's unclear right now if 30STM are interested — because just incase Jared & Shannon had their hearts set on it, people like Manson would not want to overstep and bruise their hopes. Ideally I'd like them to ask them directly if they don't know, and perhaps it's not that hard to do actually — but even if they did, I'm stuck not being sure how to put myself out there exactly.
So right now it's a little bit unclear how interested the band really is in hiring me, and the ambiguity is potentially unfortunate — but only if it stays that way for long. Actually, it would take me a while to generate an advertisement that could go out to other stars which I'd hope to connect with about my offer too. The way I see it, I should work on it with that strategy in mind throughout, and just know that if 30STM is interested, this multi-applicability factor would not be in the way. In other words, advertising myself about what I could offer as a consultant in an ad for stars seems OK as not geared to one band specifically any more than all my favourites. I mean, generally, I'm sure bands prefer things that are geared towards them specifically, for example when auditioning to joint heir band — but I believe I can work a special magic to make this flow.
Unless, of course, 30STM clarify their message for me soon and resolve this mix up here. And intuitively, I feel they will.
My Intuition Of What's To Come
I have a strong intuition that they will come through for me, in more ways than just to let me down real easy about the job, or help me understand that it's just not possible. I think the job (or as I've mentioned, the equivalent to it, as a solution to my current problem) will happen with 30STM. But I also think Marilyn Manson and Lindsay will offer some contribution. And others I think perhaps too. And I also think, the door will remain open to working on a small or limited contract basis with other stars too, and they will be very attracted to this potential opportunity together. In other words, I assume my hours that I work for 30STM would be flexible, allowing me to carve out enough time in my schedule for other attractive work as well. My only problem is, I don't know exactly when. Could be a year from now as far as I know, as much as things have been really activated lately. And that's far too long to wait based on my current conditions. My only concern is that I'm just experiencing an immediate crisis in my life and feeling overly pressed against the wall in need of immediate help.
That said, I experienced more positive intuitions about 30STM today, which is the next day after the interaction documented here. After I started working on this article, I felt a lot of spiritual support and insight coming from their direction. It seemed to me that they felt a really invested interest in how this article and the corresponding Timeline ://A\\rc)}’Hi\\V//e: would come out, and that they are fascinated with how to co-create this process with me, and sending abundant positive healing energy. I think likely that will increase over the coming days. I just can't wait after my nice day thinking of them today, to find out what's next.
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