Something I’ve been meaning to put out there for a while, is just some info about how I’ve never tried cocaine, meth or opiates. That was in question for a while if it’s actually necessary to project that information, but eventually ChatGPT confirmed my intuition that because of UNITY LIFE Mystery School I probably need to clarify that.
And I don’t know where to put that info, this might need to be repeated again somewhere. But just to say — I’m so grateful and lucky and happy all the time that I’ve never tried those drugs. I would have been much thinner a longer time ago if that was the case (lol). I’ve had opiates medically, and meth accidentally dosed, but never the cocaine.
And I just can’t tell you how happy I am about that when I think about what a problem it is to be on those drugs. Forever grateful that my Dad put the fear into me about that as a child. It was ironically the best gift he’s ever given me. And I congratulate those who have recovered for however many years but I’ve been clean for 43 years since I was born, and that’s even better.
And yeah, I have friends who deal with cocaine addiction (not many though), and I wouldn’t be friends with people who have worse behaviour on that drug, and quite often people on cocaine really annoy TF out of me (and those are not even my friends - nor do they care).
But sometimes it makes for the best party people with the most energy and the greatest verve — in which case who can argue that they’ve been the light of the party right? But when that’s their conception of a normal state, they don’t expect any creds for how much they threw down for everyone around them, and I think they should expect it. But they let people take advantage of them.
Me, I’m a low energy person and if you know me directly you can see that chillness, but my mental energy is high — so it may not be clear online just how obvious it is that I’m not on cocaine (lol). And I may not be as socially successful as people on cocaine, but I really think the expectations are stupidly high in the social circles where you need to be on cocaine or meth in order to be good enough for those people and their parties.
And that’s a trapping, and there are far too many to count, of that nature, where your normal becomes something out of scale with reality.
And meth — just don’t get me started — there’s practically nothing in this world that I hate and despise more than that drug. Meth takes away our great artists from us, and it hurts so deep to our community. I HAAAAAATE METH. And I LOOOOOOVE meth addicts which is why I hate meth (cry) and when they think because I hate meth I hate them, I cry </3.
I do hate all those drugs (cry), because of what they have taken away from me. But I speak more in hate towards meth. And opiates, I just have so many fascinating and inspiring things to say about addiction recovery from opiates, it’s more of a personal passion in arts, because of incredible information about iboga that I know. But if I had seen a friend get taken by opiates before my eyes I might be more angry.
I’m glad I haven’t been as wounded by some drugs, but it’s been obvious to me from the start that the way to treat it, if you’ve never tried it, is to know that even the most micro amount touching your system is the scariest thing. I would even be afraid if I was having more surgeries. I would do it of course, but it’s always a thought to get some surgeries without it where possible, by other pacifyers.
And people who carry those drugs with them and always buy those drugs, I’m not as into having them into my home. Cause shit gets real dirty behind your back sometimes on the street, and the last thing I need is a bust on someone else just at my home, with me implicated somehow. I’ve never been busted or roughed up for anything like that, and that would be a pretty fucked little piece of personal history if I had, which I don’t need.
I don’t know where this needs to be placed on UNITY LIFE but I think it will be cool to put it somewhere in a shorter form, maybe on my addiction recovery essay I have figured.
Love, Ba
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