So I’ve been connecting on instgram with a number of fan pages of 30 Seconds to Mars and Jared Leto fans, and getting such an Eschelon feel. This book was just something I was interested in and I thought it would make a good illustration for this story. I’m totally adoring this time bonding with women in the fan community, and I even made a really cool new friend who speaks only Italian, and it’s been well worth translating indepth conversations to and from Italian in order to invest into this friendship - because this reminds me of the golden days with Marilyn Manson fan community when I first discovered how deep the rabbit hole goes in this insta fan scene - it’s a thrill.
The vibe is sooo different between bands, and I just really appreciate getting into some deeper labyrinth with all that stuff. Yes, a rabbit hole, a hall of mirrors, all that kinda stuff - turns out to be fairly true enough of 30STM too if you are lucky.
But it’s not always positive like that, and I want to share - I had the most unbelievably negative experience with this one AI artist who is a fan of Jared’s.
Wacky crazy thing is, I was creeped out by her even at first without her doing anything wrong and my intuition was later massively proven correct. Shortly after I got a series of comment likes from Jared, she connected with me saying she’s gotten that exact experience (which no one had ever said to me before), and said this weird thing that when they met at a meet and greet, they had arms around each other and gazing into each other’s eyes lovingly. Which was odd.
I said to her “Oh I’m glad Jared felt safe and comfortable at his meet and greets, just comfortably connecting while meeting people - that’s a refreshing story in comparison to how uptight and safety protocol oriented things have gotten for Manson, the poor guy. Jared’s situation is so much better than Manson’s actually, and I feel ilke the scandals against Jared are really nothing compared to Manson’s which is comforting and it’s soothing to know he’s alright basically” but this was such a low key thing to say compared to how she was talking. Then she goes on about this big piece like that when they met, he was so into her that he already knew all about her anyway and I found that strangely suspicious as if she was psychologically probing me.
She told me she knows his ADDRESS and drove by his house to see it once, knowing actually if he was home or not, which I wouldn’t assume is a stalker scenario just instantly, but I later thought back on that as a stalker red flag considering how she acted later. And then she shows me AI videos - very elborate ones - of her making out with Jared Leto. This is not even the hardcore part yet (lol). But about that thing with his address, like this later got me wondering - how DID she get his address, you know? Can you imagine, what if she was desperately pursuing people who know him well and conning for his address (lol). I don’t know but ….
And it just hit as weird, because 2 minutes later after she started talking to me about all this initially, telling me he was liking her comments like me, I got my first comment response from Jared. I shared this with her, and it was as if the experience was constructed as a fabricated synchronicity to make me open up to her. I actually thought in my mind a strange scenario - what if she was on some kind of surveillance or something and constructed that synchronciity to get me to talk more? I thought it was odd what she was asking me and stuff. Anyway, I just got a huge intuition that she might be an enemy of Jared’s and since she hadn’t done anything wrong, I decided to just be reserved about what I will say to her and pretend it was no big deal.
So the connection mellowed out cause I was being reserved with her, but then she starts messaging me the most unbeievably hateful and dark slanderous freaky messages against Jared Leto !! Like she starts acting as if she knows him so well, and they’re so close (which I highly doubt, and that’s not how it sounded at first), and saying that he’s SO ABUSIVE, totally likes to play mind games with people, really fuck with their heads - especially his fans like me. Like what she said was so gross, I will not even repeat it. It was so abrasive actually - like I felt ike she was snapping at me and finally revealing that she’s been an enemy all along.
Listen, just I know that freaks are out there (lol). Normally that doesn’t weird me out, but that was just such a shocker to get those evil messages from this supposedly nice person who had been connecting with me.
I have to say that was no big deal really in the overall for me emotionally. I mean it was a shock - that really threw me off course for my planned productive evening, and I went ahead and had a glass of wine and joked around about this to myself in my diary instead of getting anything else done, and here I am writing about it here. So it was a bit disconcerting. But I transform it into joy, becuase to me it’s a fairly entertaining and mildly educational scenario about some things, and I find it thriller. Don’t worry about me, though, if you read this. I’ve seen a lot of things go down in my time. Weird shit like this really happens …. TO ME of course haha. I think I just attracted some sketchyness by defending Jared Leto on UNITY LIFE Mystery School and it’s kinda gangster of me to be so confident, but it’s fun < ].
I’m hardcore - I’m gangsta’ actually, I pride myself on that if this was drawn to me by defending Jared.
Love, Ba
🕊
Add comment
Comments