A CRY FOR HELP PART II (THE JARED LETO EDITION)

This is Part 2 of another post called "A cry for help" but this time it's just called "a hard time in my life because I doubt anyone can actually help me about this. Update : By the time I got to the end of the writing I felt someone could help me, and so I changed it to just "A CRY FOR HELP PART II". Continuing the original writing : It would just be nice knowing that people care. This is going to be another ridiculously long rant to get things off my chest. At least at this point. I might come back to these posts and continually refine them both as a personal therapy to myself but right now it's just a way to pour my heart out, ideally to some caring people that mean the most to me who I think probably read my website. 

So, I mentioned that I'm going through a bit of a mental health crisis, and feel free to read the other post to hear what I said about what kinds of normal help like therapy and friends to talk to directly that I'm thinking about. But just as ranting on the website, this post is about some mental issues that I'm having right now about Jared Leto. I've been having such an issue with Jared Leto on and off, and I must say, I don't believe of course this has anything to do with him actually causing it but I just need to explain. As an intuitive, I am very sensitive to energies, and I have found Jared Leto's field to be a very intense space with very, sometimes overwhelmingly powerful vibes which sometimes throw me off, and I'll explain what seems to be going on. 

So, you can find my UNITY LIFE Archive here about intuition and intuitive development, what that looks like for me — INTUITION FROM THE PERSPECTIVE OF AN AYAHUASQERA MEDICINE WOMAN — and I've been meaning to add to that archive, and I probably will add one thing eventually which is about the popular term "interference". OK so, intuitives do need to learn to drop negative thoughts such as intrusive thoughts (like degrading, illusory crap). Now, I think most people get intrusive thoughts, cause that's very apparent from the outside, but they are not seeing that in themselves and their own experience as anything but their own thoughts. A huge breakthrough in my life was when I learned in meditation to realize how to parse out intrusive thoughts. 

OK so, intrusive thoughts are one thing, but then there's also when something similar to that can interfere with clear intuitive perception, and that's commonly termed as "interference". Interference might not seem the same as intrusive thoughts but it's similar, it's like just shit quality to the way your thought process is going. Now, that kind of thing does happen to me (and I can't stress this enough, to ANYONE pursuing intuition), but now that you know what that is, I can explain what's going on for me. I have a history with Jared where there was once in the past a huge personal breakdown for me where I was gtting a lot of interference about Jared Leto only, and then that went away months later. During the period that was happening, like I dunno a year and a half ago (not exactly sure), I completely broke things off from any contact with media to do with him for months. Because I couldn't stop it, and it was only if I think about him, so I was done for a while. 

Now the same thing is happening again but in a completely different way and a part of me just finds myself just wanting to burn it all. Right now I just feel so much anger coming up against Jared, and I really don't think he's done anything wrong but it's just overwhelming me. So I'll explain the story of what happened, because this was very unique in this time. 

So starting back long before this happened. Way back, the more Jared started liking my comments and commenting to me, and coming into my life as an ever growing force and presence that I could feel spiritually, I felt like the intensity and hardcore power that I feel around him was coming up for me in a positive way. Always since he came up for me much more like in summer 2024 I think it was, it always came off as just this really intensely powerful energy that was almost overwhelming, but mostly in a good way. Well at this later point with instagram activating between us, I started to feel as though it was like he had desires and agenda, things he would want to see happening in my life. Intuitively, it seemed like a story was coming up in my mind of what he wanted me to do with my energy on things, and sometimes I liked the ideas, sometimes not. When I didn't like the ideas, I forcused on just some kind of a co-operative way to work with this energy and find a solution that "worked for both of us" according to just this conceptual imagination of what it would have supposedly been he may have wanted. And I was not attached to taking it too literally cause it's just in my head, so my brain interprets things however and could be inaccurate, but whatever the case, I found this process positive. 

But it wasn't just that. It wasn't just creative ideas and thought processes. It was also something was as if controlling me to be more productive and work harder. I became WAY more productive and started basically doing nothing but working just as hard as I could in literally every second available. Now, I've reasoned this as not just Jared's spiritual influence, but I'm sure that's a compliment to him if it were somehow his own energies causing that. But it seems a lot like him cause he is fairly well known as pretty much a workaholic or whatever type thing, you know, with recreation being also work, and I've always resonated with that kind of lifestyle too. Like you know recreation can also be productive times with art, etc etc. But anyway, it really seemed convincing that Jared was somehow behind it that I was suddenly being completely moved, as if I had no choice in the matter, but I was enjoying it, into all kinds of intense productivity and it's like I just couldn't stop even if I wanted to. Actually I'll be more honest, I couldn't stop even if I wanted to is the serious truth. It would be like actually trying to stop would never work. So this was considered golden days, definitely good times. If you enjoy what it is, that's all good. 

You get where this is going, I no longer enjoy what it is, but I'll tell the full story.

Now, what happened is, at many distinct times, I felt that Jared had seen my posts about him and loved them. As an ongoing intuition, pretty much from the start of when he started liking my comments etc but even earlier, I kept getting huge impressions that he had checked it out, and found that it was actually way better in quality than he could have conceived of to personally request that I do for him, say if he was even asking people to do shit for him which he's not. It seemed intuitively to me, he started feeling that it was as if I was a huge mind reader, practically reading his fucking mind and doing way better than he would have wanted as a response to his thoughts. I felt this from Shannon too eventually. The story was, it was like they were constantly just blown away, for real, way beyond expectations or dreams, by the quality of my stuff about them, and other art of mine too.

So I felt we were on this positive feedback loop with each other and I kept feeling like I was aware of Jared's wishes and doing things that feed my soul and his, and that was always the thing. Then at two distinct points, I publicly posted a timeline of our interactions in which I explained that intuition has always been a big factor in how I feel we've been connecting, at least on my end only. I actually have no idea how intuitive he is exactly, I think he's very "intuitive" but just not the same way as me. But I'd say for sure, I felt intuitively he was alright with that story at first that I said intuition was such a big part of things, but especially when I upgraded the quality of the timeline post and added the UNITY LIFE Archive above he started being more than inspired by that quality and really into the story being with intuition a part of it. Actually I must add, even before he started interacting with me on instagram, even a year prior, I got a spiritual message from him really hugely that the story that we were spiritually connected at a distance prior to ever directly connecting would always be a huge part of it as a giant thing, and that's part of why I added that to my timeline, and then I felt that being destined was also why he was so into that. 

So here's what I feel took place. I feel it coming up for me as though this happened (this is just an intuition) : I feel like what happened is, the more he was excited about the idea of this intuition story, the more he started coming up with the idea that he can actually cause my intuition by thinking things with powerful intention towards me with the hopes it would work, or something like that. And he decided, he really wants to connect with me someday more, and when it happens, he wants to be able to personally tell me the story that he actually got into that idea and started trying to cause it to happen, and he could see by my posts it was working. So what I think he's doing, is actually practicing some kind of intentful thought towards me to try to get me to do certain things he wants, which he assumes are for the greater good and are good for me.

But sadly, he's failing miserably at it and it's getting too intense now. He's successful, it feels, but because his power is already so strong, it's like he's over doubling his power on me and it's massive overkill and causing huge problems for me now. It's causing it to feel like the whole thing is uncontrollable for me now regardless if I would agree or disagree. Like it's all moving so fast. I'm totally being suddenly forced into actions weather I like it or not, and I can't stop it, at least not for long, no matter what I do. This is where it becomes what I must own and define as a mental health breakdown actually for me. And some crisis issues have happened — I've deleted tons of posts that it's like as if he wanted deleted which are key high level posts that have their place, and that's censorship which is so serious and such a big problem. And it's hard now to distinguish between intrusive thoughts aka interference and what might have been a genuine intuition caused by his button pushing which I bet you is true he did it actually. 

I'll give you an example. I deleted all my lingerie modelling photos and all my Ayahuasca posts from my instagram. It seemed as though that was fully forced on me agains my will because he would like to reach out more and connect more with me on instagram, and he wouldn't like it to kinda look as though Im a sex worker or an Ayahuasca drug dealer or some shit like that (lol) as that being perceptually to outsiders what it might look like as to why he was drawn supposedly on a random internet crawl to my profile to actually want to connect, as supposedly imaginably just from images and posts that are right there. And I'm sorry, it really would mean a lot to me to connect, but I have my reasons why I wouldn't find it appropriate to delete my posts. And I feel like he should just connect with me to talk about that issue instead of trying to get me in on his nifty plan somehow just spiritually through a distance connection without real communication. I don't think he's that intuitive, and I am, and I think in this way it feels like one-way and not healthy two-ways dialogue when it's this powerful, and I hav no control. 

So again, I really don't feel Jared would ever mean any harm. This whole thing seems well intended but just uninformed about many things about me that I cannot say online in order for him to find out, and which it is necessary to talk privately in order to properly explain. And I have found what appears to me intuitively to be his ideas and energetic support to be very valuable, intellectually stimulating, interesting and great, so that's part of why this is so infuriating for me right now. It just seems like Jared really means well and he's a very smart guy, much smarter than average, but in a really really big way right now there is dysfunction here between us. 

So coming back to explain more why it's hard to distinguish between genuine intuition and interference in these cases. I must say, I don't want to believe that Jared is actually that uptight and shallow worried about the judgements of the world around him as to really have any problem with the fact that I'm a lingerie model and think that means it makes me look like a sex worker in some horrible limiting way just on my instagram where it's been so well presented as art. That could be interference or intrusive thoughts, you know like degrading thoughts related to depression trying to just propose that there's always something wrong with me and I should be judged and always afraid of judgemens, and project on others that they are judging me and all that kinda thing. It's just — it would take me a while to parse through that. Judgements and stigma are a real danger issue sometimes in life and a concerning factor, but how much would someone like Jared really take it as serious? It's so hard to gauge for sure just what's true or false when it's happening like this. It takes a lot of meditation sometimes and time to really be certain. So a part of me wonders, seriously, if half of this stuff lately when it's been too powerful has even been accurate or genuine intuition. Which is scary for me when it is true, I have zero control now over what I will do within this field of Jared's so-called wishes. 

I've written an incredible UNITY LIFE Archive as well about how I feel that Marilyn Manson was actually deliberately having spiritual contact with me in a way very comparable to this. It's called SELF-REALIZATION IS CHIC and it's a mindblowingly cool story how in my understanding, he heard bout me from Courtney Love and he directed his knowledge of psychic phenomenon and you know, occult, mysticism etc etc, towards activating my spiritual intuition through his thoughts an emotions. Now, I must say, ever since this has been happening lately with Jared in this more unhinged level, I think about it all the time that Jared could learn a lot from Marilyn Manson about this technique if he would ever try to probe him for this kind of skill insight, because Manson is obviously way better at it than Jared. But Manson is well known so widely throughout the fan community to be most famously an absolute top expert on mysticism and occult and all kinds of things like that, such as psychic technique. And perhaps true enough, Manson is more raw and real about interference and what causes that, cause you know how he is such a brutally honest thinker actually. If you watch closely on his interviews, you can see his mind is embedded into probing dark realities just out of fascination and depth, and I'm a lot like that, but I can't quite compare to his depth in that way. Even me, but I'm extreme on that level. Well, I think he's mastered the art of knowing what kinds of interference it would probably be and designing work-arounds for it. That's how deep it goes. 

I wouldn't say Jared doesn't seem like he's you know, brave or realistic enough to think that way a lot, but it's almost just "No one else is Marilyn Manson" you kow? (lol). Who could compare?! I guess it's not a competition to be like him if he's that unusually special in his own way. But this has equalled to great skill in this area, much greater than Jared's obviously. Jared in comparison, his skill in this way seems to be in just emanating love and heart centred energy. He seems to just have a very powerful love core, and he somehow gets the love to come across no matter what. But Manson's spiritual influence, it has a much more stable and peaceful, winding, fascinating way of just getting right around it with intrusive thoughts or confusion about qualities etc etc. In spiritual influence, he has a unique style which reminds me of his lyrics — like a way of acknowledging deeply distrubing dark information in such a way which serves as a really brilliant intellectual humour, not just a blunt irony or something, while also creating a veil of protection around important information through paradigms of deception against illusion itself, you mgiht say. I can't say enough how much I've appreciated his lyrics on so many levels when comparing it to my spiritual experience with him. 

Jared's lyrics are equal quality but as a guy, I'm just saying, he doesn't seem to have knowledge of psychic skills. And he seems to be trying as a novice that doesn't understand his own power. That's what I would actually say. 

Then I've put out a call to him and the band 30STM asking them to hire me for a job. Now, there was so much bullshit that started coming up once I did that. Such a mix of obvious bullshit which was nothing to do with them, and confusing issues like I said before that are hard for me to really pick apart. I started to feel really burned out on some energies, things like feeling as though I have to prove myself to them for appearances sake so that if they answered the call and hired me, that it would look professional and polished to the world as obvious why they were so supportive as to consider me so well and take me up on the offer. When in some ways it looks like as a favour to me, but if you are deep, you would realize it's very two ways. Well it would be completely a two way street, not just some ridiculous favour, and that much is already clear to me, so this whol eidea of some kind of image that I've measured up really came across as really the type of thing to start resenting after a while. I'm sure anything negative about the vibe was not intendeed by Jared or Shannon at all, but there was that intense vibe like as if I'm being held up to an illusion or something, like some kind of stupid type of performance illusion, and other shit like that. 

And that is why I actually put up the Part 1 of this post "a cry for help" because I felt if they do hire me for that job, they should try to use it as a dual paradigm how it looks — both them as taking a bit of a save the girl in distress approach AND also just the whole idea that I'm obviously amazing and would contribute so much — which I feel is very apparent. And let me explain more this saving a girl in distess thing. You know how on cartoons and TV shows and movies, plots are always predictable? OK it's like in every show it's like this : Some character gets into major distress or danger, all kinds of horrible things happen to them. Then in response, all the other characters around that person in the story do the exact opposite of what ever usually happens in real life. Cartoons, serious shows, it's all the same. They go "WE HAVE TO SAVE HER :)". That's any typical plot. It's this "She's in danger? Something's wrong? We HAVE to SAVE HER :)))))) And everyone's strangely not triggered or selfish, and ironically they all just feel like a natural superhero in all thier unlikely cute flawed ways, and go ahead to "save" her. That's not reality (lol). In reality it's the opposite. In reality it's usually "Whoa, what's her shit? What's she complaining about? This triggers my sense of vulnerability to how much life sucks for me. I hate it when she cries". And they ignore the issue, then later have an existential crisis of self-doubt one day and quietly become suicidal.

Anyway, you get where this is going. I see Jared as one of those rare individuals who doesn't just play characters in shows, but it's like was actually truly for real born to literally BE a show. It's not that he's in shows, it's that he is a show. It's somehow his DNA. I feel like this whole natural superhero or comedically flawed yet sweet and endearing best friend or whatever, who naturally goes just like nothing to "save her" as if that's reality, really is actually in a rare case, who he truly is as a guy, you know? I feel on some level he probably identifies with that. I'm not saying on every level. But I do think it's much stronger in him than in others. Call it like the force in Star Wars, the force is stronger in this one, for some whatever reason, and that's just Jared Leto. I think his brother is technically related to him and so genetically, that he was somehow a born show.

So listen, if ever this post gets around to him through his research team which I'm sure checks the posts I'm doing and lets him know obviously if anything is about him and super important, so it will happen, I hope this helps. This is my way of helping to heal this process between us. It's just desperate for me to be hired properly and actually paid for my time, if not my trouble to be more honest at this point. For some real communication two ways. And I want to speak about that with research teams. I know that he has a research team to help him logistically stay on top of the stories of his Echelon besities that he always connects with on instagram incase anything is big. And that's really sweet. And yet I'm sure he also uses these kinds of teams to protect himself on a whole other level in separate spheres from things like hate and death threats as well, and therfore because of that double edged sword, it's secret that he has this capability to read something like this long winded post which was posted on the side. And that's why all these intuitions coming up that there has to be a construct fabricated of how he found me online, as if through a completely lazy internet crawl without any knoweldge of what's going on. And I respect that need to keep that stuff quiet. I mean, because his enemies and anyone dangerous to him is best not to know what he knows, that's just classic self-protection strategy. If he's informed but they are not aware of that fact, they will make every mistake in the book trying to hurt him somehow. 

So I'm not here to cause problems for Jared by being like this in public, you know? I don't mean to put this info out there when it's supposed to be a secret and I understand that as a real good reason. This post can totally be deleted later once he gets the message and this is resolved. I will be able to tell intuitively when he has. And then it will be like deleted, but the plan is to summarize it super short and well said, maybe upgrade the intuition Archive I showed you at the start of this one with more stuff, and essentialize the story in the timeline of our interactions. What I want it to be is that it came up in a time where after I said that I wanted the job, it started feeling like the situation was desperate that I was needed in more ways than could actually be practical without direct two-way communication, the proper type of consultation work I'm offering for pay, and this situation became increasingly desperate on both ends, until they broke down and coughed up the money cause they needed it so bad. 

Cause yeah I get it, it's an innovative idea what I'm proposing to them for the way they'd hire me, and this is nothing they've ever authorized as an expenditure before, for their business or any level of their needs. It is just like nothing else, which is of course the value in it, but it's a new territory to create a new kind of authorization of expenditure of money which doesnt' fall into any normal category that they're at all used to qualifying as say a business or personal expense. So when I say "cough up the money" I mean, not as a jerk about money, just as a thing that it's weird to pay me what I'm asking if they've never realized before just how valuable I am to them, in such a way in which what I am is so unique that there's no category for me. 

Oh and now this is an extra part added after thinking it was finished and posting it, so extra bonus for anyone with divine timing to find it when this was added, cause I'm not posting an update in the website log of changes cause it's so soon after : 

Also, when it comes to thinking back, if you've read the Part I, which is about the fact that I'm a sex worker right now and in a super desperate situation considering sucking racist dick for the rent (lol). OK, about this one form of idea of public perception issues with if Jared hired me personally for this job, if it would be imgind a form of prostitution. I just want to discuss that a bit, cause I've always thought about that stuff so much all my years as a sex worker. Here's the thing : Let's just say imagine if Jared wanted to have sex with me. I'm just saying this cause I know people always think of stuff like this. OK : Legally there is a thing called paying someone for consideration, like you give them a job for example, and then even though the time they're working and service they provide has nothing to do with sex, it's only through that by which they would CONSIDER t all giving HONST consent for sex, but they only would — that's a legal thing which counts as prostitution which this would not be. Just the fact that you cannot have sex with someone unless you've physically talked to them at all or met them lol, is not enough to activate it as legally a prostitution factor (lol). But yeah, sure, people do like to project and imagine things lik ethat, they really do.

I say this from experience, because this has happened to me so many times. And I definitely don't think Jared would worry about that one, because that's just too disrespectful at its core and misguided and lame to give any energy to that shit. And I just want to put it out there incase anyone's wondering, that's so not one of the issues I ever imagine in any level of intuition about Jared, at all.

Yeah, obviously the job I'm asking them for has nothing to do with sex. If we would talk about matters of sexuality, it would be in a non arousing way entirely just as an intellectual discussion about probably way more serious issues, you know? It would be nothing like that. Like for example if they were worried about public perception considering my background as a sex worker in the past, we could discuss that as professionals, but it would be nothing about like sex or whatever as if sex is in any way part of the job of course (lol). Because my entire full point why I want this job is to no longer be a sex worker, my dream. Which is the entire point, but discussing sexuality is personal, and personal things can be discussed in a professional format about important matters, and that is senstiive, but that's not at all the same thing as a sexual job.

But yeah from a long background of personal experience I know exactly how people tend to get about these things. Again, they love to project and be a jerk about things like this so much, and I'm sure a lot of bitches would cling to the idea that it's like this job is some kind of a secret or "for consideration" sexual arrangement. So let's tatlk about that just a bit more with this "for consideration" thing. Someone getting hooked up is always ging to make them happier, thus more in a better mood. But that doesn't count cause in this world, you do have to realize, it can't be ruled out with hooking anyone up ever just out of a sense of danger that you might seem to have shallhow motives on some level for just being a good person and doing nice things in this life. And that's why it's disgusting when people want to play that game with me all the time and say if someone was hooking me up in my life (and this has happened) and then we had sex, for free of course, that was a trade deal then. See, if you think about it, that's one of the most degrading things on Earth to ever say that about someone. 

Now listen, I'm not saying I'm going to have sex with Jared Leto, I'm only saying, because I'm a sex worker, people will totally imagine that I am, and imagine that's all this job has been about. But I must say, they are assholes for that. For just jumping to fucking conclusions and being disrespectful like that, you know? If they think that Jared Leto is actually fucking giving me this job just because he wants some secretive sex.

I may as well say it. It's true. I've thought about it in my life "Imagine if I did have sex with any of my favourite stars and what would that be like?". And I'll tell you just what it would be, I've really thought about it. Not as a secret. I would never feel comfortable with that. I would NEVER be able to psychologically process the experience of offering a sexual service to  a star, that would fuck me up. In my view, secrecy is the code of a sex worker, that's a huge part of what they offer. It's a real burden to keep eprsonal relationships secret if they mean anything to you. It's almost as if sex money is really just hush money when it comes down to it, just about sex even though one shouldn't really be embarrassed of that, but that's also because it's illegal for the buyer in Canada and not the seller, such a taboo to be wide open about who and what ever happened. Like that is perhaps if I search myself, even more the main reason why I would never sell a sexual service to someone I actually know personally, especially with mutual friends. Because that's so unhealthy to keep secrets in the community. People can see it even if it's secret and it creates hate and gossip. That's my reason in the community just in that, but also it's just unhealthy. 

But for a STAR?????!!!!! NOT A CHANCE I could even remotely fuckin process that kind of thing. Oh my God. I don't think most of the stories are all half true, but take Russell Brand for example, he said eh used to buy sex workers all the time, and Billy Corgan said he always does? I just think that's so unethical if you're famous. I think that's mean to the girl. That's really too much of a secret to be asked to keep. At least if that star really means anything to you for real that is. Taht's such a miserable thought to just imagine say they knew that' sunethical if they mean anything to the girl for real as a star, so they just picked out the most completely asleep loser girls who coudln't give two fucks about anyone but themselves, totally on purpose as a better way (lololol). Because then it won't hurt them cause they don't care (lol). That's so sad how that must have made them felt if they took that approach.

Personally, I used to imagine probably for Russell Brand, probably he would use simulations of reality to alter his face so that they would not see it was him, was all he even did and all he was referring to in those interviews (lol). Actually I've joked around in my diaries a lot about this one like haha, would you only use the simulation for your face and leave your body so that it's realistic to your psychological ideas of your own self hahaha. And so often I've wondered if any of them did that to me at my work with altered faces from simulations, and one time the guy looked exactly ike the SPITTING IMAGE of John Malchovich from "Being John Malcovich" and I was "OMG did anyone ever tell you you look exactly like John Malcovich?" and he goes confidently as if he was prepared "I'm not actually John Malcovich for real". That's when I thought "God fucking knows who the hell it was??!!". I'm telling you it would be so hard not to believe it was really John Malcovich, it's so odd. That to me was like being in one of those warped dimensions like in that movie. 

Actually while I'm at it telling stories about that I just want to tell one more. Also, one time the guy's face alone looked exactly like Pat Smear from NIRVANA (the lesser known band member of NIRVANA who I am an enormous fan of, he's also in Foo Fighters) but the rest of his body was completely different from just this line around his face, then the rest, completely opposite like really fat and overweight actually and different hair, all that. And I took that as a cosmic joke from Pat Smear. You know, I've never thought of Pat Smear as a love interest and I never imagined if he knew me well it would be like that for him to me, but I do imagine he would play a funny cosmic joke like that to me, I really do think that's his style. Like it would be in response totally to my jokes in my diaries about simulating only the face (lol). Like if conceptually that guy was not Pat Smear on any deeper spiritual level or on some level or whatever, who was it!? (lol). Right? Like that's a COSMIC joke, that's high level. That's all kinds of things like "Was someone rudely impersonating him with evil simulations against him?" or all kinds of imaginings for a laugh. It's like, if you'd fake your face for a simulation, are you stealing something else somehow of identity? 

I know haters won't be reading this or ever believe me if hate is what they want to think but at least I may as well say, if I ever had sex with any star, you can sure fucking bet that would be public information at least after a very short initial process. Even John Malcovich is fully outed here but the thing is (lol) I really did think maybe it was a simulation (lol). So that's actually the only eason I didn't say anything actually. I really did believe that it was symbolic only and it was a simulated reality just like in that movie like literally being in a warped dimension.

Well it is a motherfucking joke that I would feel comfortable with some stupid job like that, where it's not even respectful and for real to hire me for real reasons, only for sex. But that's the only reason I reached out to Jared and Shannon as a band, and as Jared too, was only because I fully trust them that they would never ever be so stupid and shallow and abusive as to ever think of such a thought. And I just wanted to say that. And I'm in no way saying this so that Jared will find out and learn new things from it in this part. He knows that, and that's one area I'm confident in him. I'm inconfident in the average loser, but not him, on a level such as that. And haters gonna hate. I'm sure tht's all Jared thinks is somedays it's just too disgusting to give any energy to that kind of projection, it's so disrespectful, like you really have to draw the line somewhere.