A Difficult Turning Point In My Life
I can't say that my situation is worse than so many of the people struggling in Vancouver, BC where I live. I'm surrounded by addicts, victims, troubled parents and terribly low paid / unemployed / homeless all around me. For that reason, it can be hard to find appropriate resources without money when I understand that others are more in need of free therapy and similar resources than I am. I also don't claim that my situation is as bad as some severe cases I see so often. However, I'm sure it's best if I would work on a catalogue of some of my difficulties, as I'm finding my life is taking an alarming turn and I see myself as worthy of consideration for a better job. The line of work I'm in right now is not appropriate for me, and has been presenting increasing dangers and threats. Please don't feel any social obligation to read this if you are not concerned. I will be slowly updating this entry as a work in progress gallery of my concerns.
Organized Crime Infiltrating My Work For Harassment & Manipulation
As a small-scale entrepreneur, I face certain challenges that cannot be handled with high tech security, logistics staff or delegation. The main problem is that organized crime groups who use surveillance technology and phone re-routing technology have been routinely shutting down and re-routing my phone lines while busying me and my line with AI generated harassment calls. I don't take calls at work, only texts (for first time callers) as a result of this — which lowers business for me. However, the problem persists in text messages. For the entire 4 years I've been running my business in Vancouver I have faced daily (or regular) heavy abuse through this system of cloaked, organized harassment which is geared around attempted trafficking. At this time the problem has escalated to a much more serious problem for me and caused a breaking point in my personal security which I will explain. This has never appeared to be the type of thing I'd be able to work with police about due to the cloaked and masked approach of these groups. It seems police are not the solution here unless things escalate much worse, which I hope they will not. As well, I do try to avoid police as best as possible always. Police intervention is not my goal. A new career most certainly is.
The way that these texts are actively avoiding police intervention is usually by strategizing their harassment across many different so-called sources in such a way which forms an obvious pattern across many messages — making one text or another individually not sound realistically as serious as the whole pattern indicates. For example : This problem occurs for usually about a week or two at a time, sometimes more. Each time it occurs, I'll receive constant requests from low lives for sexual services disguised as a simple and natural misunderstanding of my role as an intimacy counsellor and what I do offer — designed to look like something one might have compassion for as a classic innocent mistake which when confronted turns aggressive and violation starts to seem very intended but not explicitly physically threatened. However, the thing that pops out is that it's always the exact same type of request happening over and over and over — but only during this one period of time such as a week or two (sometimes even more). Then, the issue miraculously goes away (something which I always think about and contemplate — what causes this healing each time?). Then, inevitably it returns — but always with a different type of request and harassment approach (again, repeating incessantly as the same requests). As well, this is often mixed with what appears to me obviously to be hinting about things in my life which wouldn't be apparent to cold callers, which indicates that surveillance is being coupled with their technology. This exposes to me the issue that it has been automated and systemized centrally from some kind of organized crime syndicate or source.
While I can see the severity and threat of this situation, and they work to instill fear based on what they realize that I understand, they continue to frame each fabricated individual who contacts me as though it's very likely all in my imagination that this came from any organized group.
Constant psychological battering which of course makes monthly cycles like PMS and regular issues like struggling to get by financially so much worse for me emotionally is not the only severe issue that I face. Also, this effort to constantly violate me has been strongly geared in the direction of attempted trafficking. Always it is sexual services that I do not offer which are constantly proposed to me — in such a way as to constantly sound like an innocent and unassuming voice of reason about the circumstances of real life business and practicality. I'm being constantly bombarded with psychological programming attempting to adjust me to the belief that if I don't offer these types of services, I'm not only silly and impractical considering the financial strain caused by these violators — but at the same time, wrong to imagine that they won't succeed in forcing me to comply with unwanted sexual acts.
These are not only sexual acts proposed, but also dangerous and high risk activities such as (the more recent proposal) travelling to these people's homes. Some other types of things like that have involved taking STD safety risks, exposing myself to groups of people, allowing dangerous and sketchy mentally ill people into my home, providing video recorded or photographic explicit material (which can be redistributed), involving myself with racists, dramatically lowering my prices and of course the biggest one : just wasting my time on people who are not even really interested anyway, just to waste my time. And very often they will set up appointments and cancel, just to waste my time getting ready and then nothing happens or they start feeding abusive texts claiming I've been the reason.
Examples Of The Texts
Although these are normally cloaked enough so that I wouldn't find it useful to provide one text at a time as a way of showing what's been happening, they sometimes do have a very blatantly traumatizing and abusive style even just in one message. And so, I've decided to casually start saving screenshots whenever it does seem alarming just in a single one, so that I can keep a collection. Here is the link to that collection. As a sidenote as well to what I've been saying above, there are very often unwanted sexual graphic material presented in images sent out of nowhere, and I've saved that collection in my phone. It's easy to find them by just searching for images only. Over the years, I've mentioned this to my Dad and he suggested that it might be funny to one day put moustache stickers on each one, and offer it as an online hall of shame gallery. I thought that sounded like a funny whimsical thought — but now that I'm collecting an abusive text gallery, I can't help but think my Dad was actually prophetic and somehow knew the future. It turns out the moustache hall of shame gallery will happen.
How This is Affecting Me
The most important point here is that I have officially reached the breaking point where I am finally 100% confident that I no longer want to be doing what I do for a living anymore — and so from now on, I am FORCED (by these organized crime groups) to do what I do — which is very serious. I'd say I'm no more forced into this than say a Starbucks employee : a low-paid worker at a chain restaurant living in a "closet" so to speak (considering the rent in Vancouver) and being hassled by a boss and customers — and I feel worse for a person in that position than I do for myself. Surrendering the business for a lower paid or less stable working option would be much, much worse. So it's not just a simple and easy change I need. Now, I've never thought that what I do would really be a good career direction for me at all, so in a certain way I was always forced. However, the difference now is that it's clearly making me emotionally unstable and I no longer feel that the joys of what I do are rewarding enough to outbalance the harms it is causing for me. Also, the constant psychological battering and manipulation is causing severe temptations to offer these sexual services I do not want to offer, to put myself into much more high risk scenarios, and put up with more abuse out of desperation to get money or somehow outsmart or trick these violators. Obviously, that's terrifying and dangerous. So I do risk being forcibly trafficked in this way. As well, if things keep escalating in that way, I may have to approach police with individual cases, and that in itself is something very unwanted which I am extremely uncomfortable with.
Why Is This The Work In Progress "Polished" Edition?
Yesterday and the day before — when I was going through PMS and facing another long haul without any income after having turned away three of my closest friends for a visit so that I could be chained to the desk handling these issues — I snapped. Out of desperation to somehow vent or get this off my chest, I wrote not one but two ridiculously long rants about everything I'm going through, complete with epic typos. That writing process was very therapeutic and unfortunately it wouldn't have had the same effect if I wasn't aware that my work is being read by some of the most admirable people I know. These massive long writings trailed from initial freakout into incredible jokes and stories. My writing process started to bring out some of my best old iconci jokes and funny, wise insights. I felt that this side of my life offers an untapped resource in some ways. Certain creative inspirations started flowing. I decided to take the gems from that experience and polish them in this piece. I've only offered one of many so far. With time, this article will become long with many excellent features, and likely extend into other spinoff pieces.
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