One enormous thing missing from my life is the money to travel or the ability to take time off work for such things. Due to the legal hyper-sensitivities with being hugely outspoken and vocal on the internet about the fact that I am an Ayahuasqera Curandera Perfumera — a master healer of the psychedelic plant medicine of Peru's ancient tradition of the Shipibo-Conibo people ...... I cannot do Ayahuasca in North America :( .
You can legally get away with doing it in Peru though, if you are like me, a Canadian citizen. American passports do say that you have to follow American law while you are in other countries, but it's not so bad in Canada. I try to be fairly discreet about it though, and that's why I sometimes kinda worry that the temptation to hugely publicly document the whole trip on UNITY LIFE might be a block in the way of manifestation (lol) (sweat). I dunno, it has to happen.
But some important things I need with my Ayahuasca path could be fulfilled even without possession of illegal medicines. To pursue Vegetalismo, the traditional practice of spiritual bonding with the many master plants associated with Ayahausca healing tradition, I can actually do the same long retreat called "dieta" without taking Ayahuasca but only using non-psychedelic and fully legal master plants. These I can legally attain online prepared perfectly for mail (which is complex) by an Ayahuasqero who is fully trusted in Peru. And that is what it would take as the preparation methods for these plants MUST be incredibly precise.
Of course, the experience is nowhere near as amazing without Ayahuasca, but it will have the exact same lifelong spiritual effect as a result. The only miserable block for me is that this requires a lot of time off work. It's not just a 10 day dieta, it's like minimum 2 weeks before and probably after to need off work. As you can imagine, there's not a CHANCE I can afford that even though my current work is flexible with schedule. But with the new career I've been dreaming of as an intermedia art consultant, this wouldn't be necessary for as much time. That would allow a dieta to be only 10 days off work, therefore so much more attainable financially at home.
Don't get me started how much it has sucked not being able to do Vegetalismo at all since 2017. Previously I had been doing it every year for 15 years and to do it yearly — in my opinion — is how it should always be done for someone like me (an Ayahuasqera, or anyone training to become one). And by the way (incase you're curious) I used to do it for 2 weeks to multi months times, but now the medicine has advised me to do only the 10 days from now on for reasons to do with my healing journey reintegrating post-graduation from prior situations. But back then I was a lot less grounded and stable about money and obligations, and this did lead to many unstable scenarios that I don't think are really right for me anymore.
The problem has been money the whole way for doing dieta without Ayahuasca, and for the illegal medicines, the problem has been different. When I graduated in 2017 to become a full-fledged Ayahuasqera, I was ushered into the media with that, intrinsically along with how I graduated. That included the complex path of publicly broadcasting my work with these medicines which caused new legal sensitivities, thus confining me to Peru only for this kind of work :(((((((
Now, before I discuss what famous stars I'd meditate on for manifestation in this, it's necessary to discuss the medicine. The medicine does manifest, and knows all. They always protect and ensure their master healers will have access and safety to work with the medicine, when those people properly follow tradition (which I do). At least, that's the case for my tradition of the Shipibo-Conibo. I certainly can't say the same of the Santo Daime Tradition (lol) — but if you know that one, you know that's a whole other ball of wax about the law.
In my own case, they were willing (only once I was fully graduated) to sacrifice the yearly master plant dieta regime in order to master this process I was about to be going through with the media as a full result of their intentions. They knew it would naturally happen over several years' progression that things would integrate and firm up to the final result (continuing my Vegetalismo journey) between myself and "my favourite stars" as I often call them — but this calls for more formal tone. I call it The UNITY LIFE Branch.
How exactly this would "firm up"? We'll have to see. As discussed in this post I have considered the possibility that I might be hired for the intermedia consultancy by the band 30 Seconds To Mars, so if THAT happened, then yes I think I can afford to start doing my yearly Peru cycle. But regardless of how things manifest in the end, I know by the medicine that it will be, and this will be so deeply integrated with the branch, it's not even fucking funny. This is the ultimate manifestation of the whole branch.
One reason why it is so ultimate is because of the music destined to happen, and although I am about the whole branch as including much more than music as a form of media, my focus is more on music due to the central core of my art being the band NIRVANA. But actually that's way more suited anyway to an Ayahuasqera, since the healing traditional music of Ayahuasca is so prominent to their ceremonies. Not all psychedelics are so music focused as Ayahuasca. I'm sure bands like The Beatles in their psychedelic research during the psychedelic revolution of the 60's and 70's were always most attracted to Ayahuasca and mescalito in its various forms due to this musical factor. Well, the story of MY muisc is incredibly exceptional, and an album would not only seem great, but mindblowingly high in quality.
The quality of the icaro healing music that started coming out of me (as one with Ayahuasca and the master plants, which I call the medicine altogether), WAS STUNNING BEYOND BELIEF. Now, anyone might doubt that it was as stunning as I thought if the psychedelic experience of being on Ayahuasca makes things seem more beautiful than they are, but I beg to differ. Sure, yes it does amplify beauty and insight into sound, but I have a long background with Ayahuasca before this mindblowing extremely dramatic change to the quality of my music took place in a soaring shift (going from 2 to 20,000 power extreme) all at once when I graduated.
But that's not all. The quality soared to that degree on the first round, but in every concurrent ceremony after that, it kept doing it AGAIN — shocking me to the stunning degree AGAIN just as much. You can't fucking imagine how much that meant to me to experience that. That's debatable from an outside perspective that it was not just that the experience was fresh again and new so it felt like more — but not from mine. I know what the medicine was doing with those icaros then and how they got it to improve later. This comes from deep literacy of the music and relationship with the medicine. It's beyond obvious too, in a way I can distinguish from that type of layered effect with like as I'm very used to, practically each new ceremony feeling like it was honestly the greatest ceremony of my whole life and better than before.
Although vocal artists are incomparable as creatives, the vocal arts that I do in this medicine are actually much more beautiful than I've ever heard in any female vocal artist. And not to be about comparsion but say for example the gorgeous vocalist in the album "The Word As Power" by Lustmord? WAY more beautiful. Which is WHHHOOOOOOAAAA. But seriously, I am reluctant to make comparison. It's a compliment as she is the best female vocalist I think I've ever heard. I truly believe it could be very famous if quality of music was what causes fame in this crazy world.
But there is a bit of a manifestation block in the way of this. Firstly, the medicine has been carefully protecting me from getting scooped by the wrong talent hunters in order to optimize my path of manifestation for my first album. So, the medicine won't produce anything even remotely at that kidn of a quality level at any time.
Now keep in mind too, recording while on Ayahuasca would also produce better quality because the medicine protects its sacred ceremonies and ensures that the traditions are revered by making the biggest gifts only available within that space. But I can do the music really well outside of ceremonies too (of course with full permission from the medicine already granted for that) — it's just that within that space, lacking in vocal practice definitely shows (wheras it has zero influence within ceremony whatsoever — the medicine FULLY takes control), and also the attitude and approach of the plant teachers in the music will have a more defensive and hissy tone with more troubled tricks against haters and stuff like that too in that kind of a space which is much less respected for icaro singing.
So that's why I've never been able to just produce a demo. Long story short, I'm not allowed to make a demo right now. So sadly, you have to just take myw ord for it with these mindblowing claims. There's so much to unpack about why I was given this ability which I have never seen done to this extent with any other Ayahuasqero/a (after having witnessed so many of them sing, at quality levels that would completely blow your mind beyond imagination pretty much haha). I mean as an Ayahuasqera, I'm able to read icaro music and understand what's going on with it unlike others. So just trust me, there's a lot of dynamics going on and a lot of literacy here which is very multidimensional as to why I see myself as actually more beautiful musically. And that's in NO WAY intended disrespectfully, which I'll explain :
One (of many) special factors for me is that my music in Ayahuasca was designed by the medicine for fame. As you migth imagine if you know the power of Ayahuasca, they were not fucking around when they catalyzed me into my media specialized path as a Perfumera designed for this way. But there is more — I'm also much more observant of tradition than others. That will increase the quality too. And frankly when they are as observant of tradition as me, I'm hard pressed to even start saying mine is more beautiful actually. I mean I can't even find that kind of a converstion going in my mind wiht SOME of the elders I've heard who I can tell thanks to the constant lifelong integration with master plants as combined with my observance of tradition, are as observant as I am. I mean that's another cosmos altogether.
And if one would criticize me, by the way, for being "competitive" in tone about music quality here towards "sacred" practitioners, what I'd say back to that is that they SHOULD be competitive much more than they are — in the observance of tradition — but they are not. Their burn, not mine (lol).
So a little more about the album. I was most inspired by the fashion label Enfants Riches Dés Primes when I discovered them through Marilyn Manson and his wife Lindsay — though should be mentioned that Jared Leto is also a huge fan of theirs. When I found them, and just researched into them a ilttle bit, I was amazedt o make my first discovery of what is called post-punk, but most importantly "Outsider Art". Outsider art is done by the untrained and without technical tools necessarily that would be considered the polished kind etc etc, as if created by an outsider of the art genre itself. This can be done with any type of art, including music. Now, usually outsider art is called outsider music, but I just like the word art better so I like to call it that with my plans.
Of course, it's the opposite entirely when it comes to it for me as an Ayahuasca traditional music, but this would be engineered for mainstream fame by the medicine. So I would like to call it outsider art which would qualify as a strategy (which I do all the time) called molting, described in The 9 Strategies of The COAGULA from The 7 of 9 ⨺ SOLVE COAGULA Mind Map System (Prototype). But molting being necessary is often a problem in life. No one enjoys having to molt. Often that comes out in my life as a block to manifestation — I'm just waiting until I've molted enough so that I can finally move forward with items like this. And yeah there is some major molting that I've been having to work on with this process, which is the reason I've been so secretive about this information so far and kept certain things about it so quiet.
I think sometimes projecting myself could be helpful. 30 Seconds to Mars, for example, have been all over the website checking out my stuff. Also, I'm sure so has Krist Novoselić (and his wife Darbury) of NIRVANA at least enough to get a rough introduction right now (but I think posting on instagram, if I posted this to there, would be way more likely to get seen by him as well as 30STM — it really could help). In fact I also have my suspicions that Dave Grohl as well may have been keeping track of me much more than he's indicated. Long story short, getting this intermedia art consultancy, if it could lead to all this, might obviously peak the interest of the branch on this level. And I sense that I've molted enough about this to now be able to say it in a tucked away method just here at least, and indicating it on Meta of course without full detail of what's inside this post.
And that's a huge emotional healing for me to feel like I've finally molted enough to be in this stage of projecting this information openly. A part of me really feels that if the molting is done this well now, this might be the sign that it will manifest soon.
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