Ayahuasca, Visions, God Is In The TV ◊ And The Foo Fighters Anti-Censorship ◊ Amazing, Disturbing Story

I guess it all starts in 2017 when I was having some Ayahuasca ceremonies of extreme importance. Previously, throughout my long history of over 500 Ayahuasca ceremonies or so, ish, I had been taught indepth by Ayahuasca about a type of extreme abuse which the medicine called SRA (Satanic Ritual Abuse). Now, comparing notes between what the medicine was teaching me and what's out there for conspiracy theories and online info about SRA under that name, I found it didn't really match to my visions. At least, not perfectly. Some things online seemed to confirm my visions but always in a way that was partially resonant, and partially looking like something totally else that they were trying to describe.

I kinda made myself a promise that I wouldn't mention Billy Corgan in my writings, but I guess I'll make an exception just for this. It just so happened that Billy explained his understanding of SRA on his videos one time on @billycorgan on instagram which it was at the time, and I was blown away by how close it was to the more core understandings that Ayahuasca had taught me. From my teachings, it's a very complex type of abuse which uses a combination of hormones and chemicals, along with ritual abuse acts. That's a very prominent teaching I got from Ayahuasca. I found it incredibly fascinating that Billy Corgan had it exactly the same way as me as a description. I wondered so much "Did he also get that information from psychedelic plant medicine? Cause it's so streamlined and graceful as a way of explaining it". 

Anyway, it's a sexual form of abuse most often, so I think that explains the hormones. The chemicals, I realized eventually, were drugs, such as underground combinations of drugs like combined with addictive ones like opiates and stuff like that, and very dangerous. 

Regardless of that particular interesting piece, the amount of information I've been taught about this by Ayahuasca is absolutely stunning. Going into SRA was one of the biggest themes we've worked on over the 15 year course of my training and so many ceremonies. So, for the purposes of this story, just a few things to mention : This abuse is extremely complex and there are many, many countless types of abuse rituals that are a part of this structured system. The system is designed primarily around controlling people. Through this control, it is believed that much power is gained throughout society. And of course, it's incredibly secretized abuse — this is nothing we would have seen much evidence of really. 

When it comes to conspiracy theories about this online, I can't really say enough just how much I'm certain that it's true with the theories that this abuse comes from an ancient system. There are many ideas about what ancient system exactly, and that part's so easy to debate and play around with, but no question in my mind whatsoever — it's something incredibly complex and ancient. That is exactly how it has so much structure and prevalence in our modern world. You'd always think "Oh yeah right — come on. As if there's complex abuse that works with psychology and physiology so structually and indepth to get results of such a specific quality" and it's like "No, something that ancient could be that complex. It's not a thing like they just thought of it right now. It's been a monster that's been out of control for like thousands of years or whatever". 

So like, that's just a hardcore topic on so many levels (lololololol). But it's about to get even more hardcore once we get to the Foo Fighters. The Foo Fighters make Billy Corgan look ike a walk in the park (lol). Believe me, this could trigger people (lol) (sweat). 

So here we go .... into the evil (lol) </3. 

So the crazy thing is, in my ceremonies of 2017, at some point, I got some new teachings from Ayahuasca about one abuse ritual in particular which they actually do. This particular ritual is like much more rare I think, because it involves killing someone. Now, my understanding is that with SRA, killing people is super rare. The idea is to just use a human life as a battery, extending out how much harm you can do to it while also extending its life just as much as can be. The main purpose is to use a body, not lose it. Kinda like Jesus on the cross how they extended his torture for a whole 3 days, but this is aiming for a long lifetime, or a pretty normal lifespan I guess. I mean sometimes yes, early incidental deaths too considering the high risk scenarios these people get into. But ritual murder is so much more rare in SRA. 

So this is a type of ritual murder that is done, and it's only done when the person is considered an important person to get rid of for some huge reason. It is believed that in order to discourage this ritual, it should be one of the hardest rituals that can possibly be done. So, what happens is, they murder the person somehow and then a group of people involved in the ritual together (because it has to be a group to make it harder and co-supervised), all eat the entire body over the course of a long period of time, which could be days. And it's the most disgusting experience to eat a body raw, and it's basically supposed to create an experience of shame and doom and torture in the people eating the body. And every little part of the body is treated ritually. There are not many human body parts you can't eat, and certain parts are saved for other ritual purposes, but most of it has to be eaten. This includes a lot of throwing up. 

Anyway, once they're done with this whole ritual, they believe it gains them evil powers by going through with it. It's like the most traumatizing experience of their lives and they believe that they are now made powerful by it to do greater harm to innocent victims and wield danger to get their way. 

So for me it was very interesting when I saw that Dave Grohl was doing BBQ events a lot, and during the BBQ's always acting like it's a repulsive and scary thing and gesturing very abundantly about it as like as if it's a truly mortifying evil act. These BBQ's were not of human flesh of course, they were beautiful outreach to give food to the poor, and everyone respected it. But the second I saw that he was doing that I instantly thought that he was putting out a message that there is some significance to the SRA ritual I'm talking about. If you're familliar with my work, FACET 1(73) ◊ ORIGINAL, it's a documentary about how I realized through Ayahuasca that Kurt Cobain is alive. And in theorizing about his faked death and how this would be pulled off, I sometimes thought about Dave's BBQ and wondered if some evil, dangerous SRA abusers thought that they actually ate his body raw like that, but it wasn't him. 

Anyway, I was already thinking that, and then the Foo Fighters movie Studio 666 came out, in which the whole BBQ theme of Dave's was transposed into an idea of it being human flesh. In that movie, Dave was portrayed as having a demonic craving for human flesh, and he was murdering the members of the band and eating them as BBQ. I couldn't believe it — this fully confirmed my theory. But when Taylor Hawkins was one of the people he murdered in the movie, I was amazed that he apparently died soon after the film came out. I always had thought that Taylor Hawkins' resemblance to Kurt Cobain was no coincidence. I really thought that he was joined to the Foo Fighters because his appearance was just one of many things he had in common with Kurt. I felt perhaps he had a spiritual calling just like Kurt to fake his death. 

The connection between this understanding I had developed about the way Kurt had faked his death transposed so well onto this story with Taylor. I had theorized that tricking these bad guys into thinking they had actually physically eaten Kurt's body would get their dangers right out of the way to Kurt. If they had been an increasing threat, this would be the perfect way for Kurt to get out of their line of fire. In my opinion, this was done using simulated realities. I really believe that those bad people experienced a simulated reality of eating Kurt's body. Unfortunately this is a weird thoery without that as a way to explain it since no one believes in simulated realities in a serious level but like me and some cool people, so in that case, it's obviously like "Who did they eat of a non-simulated real person if I buy this?". But who knows who they ate (lol). Not every question needs to be answered at all times (lol).

But this issue is challenging for me. Anyway, someday, using The 16 KEYS SUPPORT TOOL, I know I can properly tell this story someday. It will seem like art and not necessary to stress details like "simulations are not believable so it must have been NIRVANA murdered some look alike of Kurt or played a part in his death" (lol). 

So like, that's not even the story of the Foo Fighters poster. It gets even darker than that. 

So that happened in 2017, with the visions — but now fast forward to like around say 2018 or 19 or so. I was homeless and living in my Dad's shed with no windows, and it was a rough time. There was no light except for lamps and it had a very dark and dreary atmosphere in that little tiny shed, and I wasn't allowed to go outside. Please note, my Dad was not abusing me by setting that rule. He would be kicked out of the trailer park if I was ever seen there just because of this evil bipolar sketched out trailer park manager who had some bias against me and said that my Dad's not allowed to have me to visit or stay there anymore, for no good reason. So due to risk to his tenancy, I had to keep secret in the shed. 

So as a result, I had no light in my life. And therefore, during that time, visions started coming up a lot for me in my mind. I was having a lot of visual hallucinations at that time. Now, that's not a condition I suffer with permanently. It was only because of that time in the darkness. For me, I have a very active imagination but without light and if I don't mind it and kinda need it for interest or just whimsically feel like encouraging it and journeying through hallucinations, it will increase that way. Then it would always decrease again in a normal time of my life, especially if I didn't want it anymore. Later on I totally decided hallucinations were considered a symptom of schizophrenia so I just thought that's not good, so I decided to just stop the visions. A schizophrenic person can't do that — hallucinations are completely involuntary for them. I easily made it go away. It also helped that I had access to outdoors and windows then. It's not a thing for me now since I moved almost 5 years ago. 

I just think my brain works a little differently because of how my genetics have been shifted by Ayahuasca, and I have a more hallucinagenic property to me genetically, and that's why it wasn't schizophrenia. Ayahuasca is a healing medicine that would never let me be schizophrenic but respects mental imagery within reason and in a harmonious balance. 

So that's one stigmatized reason though that this has been censored. But I'll go on with the story. 

So what happened with visions in the shed one day turned out to be Foo Fighters but I didn't know that yet. You'll never believe this fucking story — it's sooo good. To summarize it quickly, I had visions, then went in to the trailer to watch TV with my Dad and the TV show on had those exact same images as were just in my visions — then I went back into the shed and opened instagram and there was this Foo Fighters poster which was just like the visions and the TV. and I knew what it meant in the poster because of the visions and TV content. And this all tied back to my SRA information into some deep lore that brings clarity to it all. But I'll take you through it all now. 

OK so this was an epic vision journey. I probably spent like 2 or 3 hours just going into absolute fullest depth in visions about this. It's a loooong fucked up story (lol). But it was as though I was being presented by Christ with a story of his secret history. It was a Christ illusion, which felt resonant of Christ in the end, but later came out as not true — it can't be this really took place to Christ. But actually I should say, also in the ceremonies of 2017 I got my first Ayahuasca vision of Christ and it was related to this. OMG !! Actually I only JUST remembered this again that it also corresponded to an ayahuasca vision before. 

OK let's just go back to 2017 to the Ayahuasca vision that primed these visions in the shed. My first vision of Christ, obviously very formally presented by Ayahuasca as a special medicine teaching about him. He appeared in the vision beautifully but strangely. Actually it's so hard to describe the beauty and potency of these visions. I wish I had the words for the beauty of it. It's also energy and intelligence and emotion — so many vibes. But the strange part about this picture of Christ was that his mouth was elongated, kinda like a hummingbird's beak. It was flesh lips and flesh mouth, but came out straight for like about a foot long and looked like it could be a whistle or something like that. Actually that kind of shape is sacred to Ayahuasca. Tobacco pipes for use in Ayahuasca ceremony always need to be straight, not curved, because like a hummingbird's beak it creates the powerful pushing of air which resembles blowing or whistling. These are very powerful healing Ayahuasca themes. But this shape of the mouth was obviously not natural for a human body. It was like a freakish deformity version of Ayahuasca traditional medicine symbolism. 

Christ was fully radiant with a gorgeous aura and incredible vibe, but he also had a fascinating shadow over him and this strange mouth. At the same time, Ayahuasca provided a teaching about this image. I was really into new age stuff at the time, and there is a new age theme called "overlighting". Legend has it that you can invoke a great saint or master like St. Germain or Christ or whoever, and they will "overlight" your aura. This means that they will be present right wtihin your energy field so that wherever you present yourself, they come along with you. They both influence you and the people around you, blending gorgeously with your vibe and intentions. So, in reference to this idea of an overlighting, Ayahuasca siad that Christ provides "an overshadowing", like a sacred mystical shadow as opposed to a light. Combined with this strange deformity of his mouth, I can't tell you enough how interesting this was, but most of all continued to be with the later Foo Fighters experience. 

Now, it's incredibly common to have Ayahuasca visions of Christ throughout history. So this was incredibly epic for me to get my first Christ vision from Ayahuasca — and surprising that this arrived at such a late stage of my career with the medicine. I was so blown away. 

So back to the shed in like 2018 probably, perhaps later. I think it actually was 2018, I'm pretty sure. Now, this vision definitely matched the overshadowing concept. It was like a shadow illusion of Christ, as if this was just such a perfect illusion to find out about from him. It seemed like an illusion of great significance. 

The story of the visions goes back to some early history of a time perhaps in between time itself, in some other plane of existence, somehow ancient but beyond time. It was like an idea that creation of the Earth somehow extended from this series of events, but the Earth had also already been created. In this scenario, God and Jesus were at odds. Jesus was a slave to sexual abuse from God of a most extensive and severe kind. They were both in physical human bodies in some kind of a chamber. The family of light, like archangels and cherubim, were noted as a complex group called "The Office of The Christ", there to formally oversee the abuse. In their compassion, they were doing everything they could to spiritually support Christ to cope with this extensive abuse. But it must be noted that if in their infinite power they could only help him barely get by, this resembled SRA like how I said before about extending the life of a victim to use it for longer. However, the office of the christ seemed reverent. 

It was not like SRA literally because the key difference was that "miracles" so to speak — anti-miracles of a negative quality — were being used extensively by God The Father to help Christ cope with the abuse in such a way that would extend it. So ... this is absoluetely disgusting information so I'll try to explain this part quickly. Basically this was just going on for crazy amounts of time, like could have been years, with Christ having to give nonstop head to God, and miracles had been used to greatly increase The Father's potency so that semen was practically constantly being swallowed nonstop by Christ, and this was his life for years in torture. Now, this swallowing and stomach experiences was absolutely the most manaiacal degree of revulsion.

The revulsion part when Christ explained that to me was very indepth. And in that I found a deep treasure, which is Christ compassion for anyone who has experienced revulsion, physically, especially that kind, and anything to do with swallowing and the stomach. And I find that level of compassin very resonant of Christ. 

But going on, so this experience was so challenging for Christ that it was obviously needed for some kind of a miracle to help him get through this. Now, this was like an abuse ritual with them psychically commuincating with each other throughout everything, and they were going through conversations of a ritual nature. Sometimes there was a punishment and reward dynamic being initiated by certain things. So sometimes as a reward, Chris would receive a miracle to change his body in such a way which would make the abuse easier to cope with. Changes were made to his stomach, but the most notable was changes to his mouth, because the revulsion of grasping for air combined with swallowing was the worst burden. So his tongue was changed and eventually his mouth, until his mouth was a long tube with a very strange proficient tongue which might be compared with a hummingbird tongue in a way. 

Eventually this continued until it was disastrous to further extremes. His lower body kept being reduced to less and less in order to grant him less connection to his feelings. His brain was being reduced for the smae purposes. He was becoming just a machine for receiving this abuse until eventually his body resembled almost like an alligator shape, but actually his torso was very small and his legs. Essentially his body was degraded until final doom. 

In his final moments of doom Christ told me that he saw my spirit throughout the entire experience of all the abuse. Not too long earlier I had changed my name to Ba which means the Dove. I see myself mystically as a being that relates with Christ. Christ told me the story then of how all through the abuse, I had come to him with healing and with a vision of a future marriage between us someday. The vision of our marriage was healing during this experience. Even during final doom he reched out to my spirit, unable to think or function but just knowing that I was there. It was a story of ultimate true love. He felt so fated to me. In later mystical Christ experiences, long after it was debunked with this illusory story, Christ informed me that no matter what the reality it would be, he would always be in love with me. So, even in the most diar of circumstances or the most abstract of dimensions, there's always a story of true love between us, if it's a genuine Christ story. 

In retrospect, I find that fascinating, because I have often wondered if things like that may have been a genuine part of history. Genetic modification without instruments? Breeding? Ritual experimentation? I wonder if forces like that aim to reign over our world today in some form. I was in a band once, called iFly, and my genius co-star Andrew Stout had some cool lyrics about stuff like that. I think it was "Genetic manipulation / (um I forget this part) / alien integration / illegal occuption" ... then something about biochemistry. But all these words that rhyme with manipulation there was mention of the CIA but no mention of investigation (lol). Because of course, the CIA would cover it up (lol). 

Regardless, those visions finished up and, exhausted, I decided to mosey on in to the trailer to watch some usual low key cable TV on the tube with my Dad over dinner. Random shows were on as usual and one that we often watched was South Park. Keep in mind, the main feature of the abuse visions had been this long tube-like snout? OK (lol). So on South Park, for some reason they had been doing genetic changes on people, perhaps as a voluntary thing, and one guy showed as an example that he had moved his genitals to his face, but made them as a tube like an elephant's trunk only with only one hole, cause it was a tube for giving head. As usual South Park is very outrageous and can be graphic and shocking in that kind of a way. Well this was extreme. 

Now that's a fast story to tell. It's almost worth repeating, though — it was just so mindblowing. I just sat down on the couch and what was on TV but that? Right after those visions. Like I simply couldn't fucking believe what I was seeing. My life had been filled with shocking synchronicities with the random things coming onto cable on TV around then very often, but nothing to this extreme scale. This was a LIFE CHANGING EXPERIENCE FOR ME. In that moment, I knew the old saying "God is in the TV" is not just a catchy phrase, but a reality. What you see behind that TV glass is normally considered fully separate from you. It's normally considered a whole other world that just has nothing to do with you or your life. At that point in my life I felt that way about TV. Then, I had not connected with stars yet and I had not realized things on TV could be significant to my life for real. 

My life was a life of visionary realities and perceptin of the divine, God, whatever you call it — things like Christ and me being the Dove. It was mostly a life about things you never really see much of on TV, but especially never in the way that I experience it. This was not just being affirmed by television that something's in the media like my inner world — it was like God talking to me from behind that TV glass saying distinctly that there is no separation, that that sense of a separation is an illusion, that it is all a unified field of co-existence which is one, like all creation aka existence may be seen as a singular existence. I knew that already that the universe is all one, but I had simply never thought of it like that about TV. From that point on it was like being in a holodeck designed for me, as if life was a TV program for and about me. I didn't feel disconnected from reality by that, I just felt more grounded into the view that you might find core emotional significance where you least expect it. 

That was another experience of looking through the glass of the TV (in this case, the glass of the iPhone looking at instagram was the picture of the media, rather than TV shows) and seeing that something which I had assumed would be separate and disconnected from me was not. At that time in my life, my work on the theory that my Ayahuasca visions had been about Kurt being alive was in its earliest beginning stages. I'm not even sure if I knew yet that the visions had been about Kurt. It was sometime in 2018 that I discovered information about Kurt's passing and his home which illuminated that fact that I had been given potent information to explain that he was alive, by Ayahuasca. It was a very powerful time in that way, and this was a wonderful story of how not only NIRVANA but also the related band Foo Fighters turned out to have powerful relationship with not only my Ayahuasca visions but with me as a person — even my mystical spiritual significance as the Dove. 

There are some Foo Fighters songs that came out later that I felt were actually about me specifically. Considering the importance of my role in the saga of Kurt being alive and this message needing to be shared with the world for healing reasons, I came to realize through my development over the years to come that I was already seen and known by NIRVANA which includes Dave Grohl and the Foo Fighters, as well as Courtney Love. It took me so long to understand why they hadn't contacted me about this if it was that important to their lives, art and career options, etc etc. Eventually it made so much sense, but I will continue to grasp it so much more with time. But regardless, I'm certain that some Foo Fighters songs were about me, including one that relates to this phenomenon I experienced which is called The Glass, and a new song on their newest album Your Favourite Toy which I think is called Window Cleaner, and it's about a window cleaner at the glass. 

The Glass is about Dave saying that he's had visions of someone special, someone he couldn't connect with directly and that was very difficult for him. I believe it was me, and he's referring to Ayahuasca visions. The Glass could be seen as a metaphor perhaps for different things, one of them could be the TV glass like I've described here. It's like we're separated by dynamics of fame or other dynamics to do with their role in the media which unfortunately necessitates distance for now. The glass of a TV screen really does make you feel separate but that separation is untrue between us on a deeper level.

And in the window cleaner song, it's about that. It's like the person's looking through the window and a window cleaner comes along and is standing right in front of him and now they're awkwardly aware of each other but feeling strangely distanced. The person feels dissociatively aware of the window cleaner's life in such a way which doesn't grasp what it's really like for him, and he feels no obligation to understand (lol). I feel it relates more generally to how people psychologically relate with stars (lol). But it's cool when related to mine. I'm not dissociating or failing to recognize what their lives are probably like — I do contemplate their reality as best as I can — but it might seem nicer to me than it is sometimes, I dunno. 

Anyway, it's getting really late now and I feel I shoudl go to bed. But I'll continue on this rant to follow up on a few extra details that go into this from later thought. Long story short, Jared Leto is someone I view as a certain type of media image of Christ which I call a Christ Figure, and there was a fascinating photo of him with an elephant, which really moved me. He had his sweatshirt tied around his waist, and I felt this indicated something about how people form illusions about people's private parts and psychologize the elephant's trunk — and I just felt Christ-like protection of animal safety in his intentions and emotions around that image. 

Another thing I wanted to mention as well is Tim Skold, another favourite musician of mine. He's someone who has really shown incredible concern for animal welfare and safety and I would love to include his story as a way to explain how I think animal abuse is a serious issue surrounding this story, and something that can be tackled by explaining animal safety and protection themes and arts in the media such as his. Because I think animal abuse is a threat sometimes in how certain abusers might view or portray this shockingly disturbing image of Christ. 

I also want to carry on and speak about animal and child abuse, pedophila and sexual, and how this ties in with SRA. Because SRA is the system which would try to twist this story and demonize it and cause problems. This story has been censored due to perceived dangers I see of that nature in putting it out and projecting it to the world. I see images of sexual abuse and pedophilia from God the Father to Christ as being central to systemic SRA abuse from wtihin the Christian Church. So I'm very suspicious and concerned about how people like that would react tot his information. 

But this information is important. It has so much to do with FACET 1(73) ◊ ORIGINAL as the Foo Fighters part of that same story originating in 2017 in those important ceremonies of my graduation to become an Ayahuasqera. So it needs to somehow be built into a UNITY LIFE Archive or a PDF FACET booklet to accompany F.1(73), or whatever format we go with if we change and upgrade the format of the Kurt Cobain is Alive saga of The 72 FACETS (IN 144). 

Actually that pretty much covers it. I think I said enough about what I'm thinking with all that extra stuff. It's just Tim Skold, I think that could be such a helpful addition. I really feel like that's destined. I feel like Tim has been trying to psychically project to me that animal protection nd safety from abuse is something he's really into as it would weave so eprfectly wtih my art. And the Jared Leto elephant thing really works with this. That would go so well together. In other words, that would protect my free speech to creatively collaborate with them in that way — in Tim's case it's a psychic bond and real thing directly. In Jared's, I'm sure he'd be so flattered to hear how much his picture meant to me. But he's alreayd very protective of me so that's good help to include him in this, cause he'd love being included with anything Dave / Foo Fighters / NIRVANA on UNITY LIFE for sure. So this all works. 

Now my challenge is only to get this mapped out into some kind fo an archive or writing piece. It's very long so maybe just shortening the story to a hardcore degree for the UNITY LIFE Archive and just saying, for the strong stomached this longer full detail version is actually available too (lol). But whatever — I don't know (lol) </3. Let's see what happens. It's been forever that I've been holding onto this piece and not using it, so I assume it might be another "forever" before it's more uncensored. But writing it here is a huge postiive step in the right direction.