Continuing to Problem Solve The Deletion Of The Lingerie Modelling

Published on May 28, 2026 at 12:07 AM

Some stuff went down to make me feel that it's time to get more serious about powering through this problem right now and getting the situation resolved, no matter what it takes. Unfortunately, what this problem is may not be very clear to anyone who hasn't been reading the previous posts, so please do consider the story from earlier, in order to be able to follow along properly here.

Here's one thing that happened. For a long time, I've been suspecting that my best friend Mary works for 30 Seconds to Mars. Now, that's actually been mentioned in the Timeline ://A\\rc)}’Hi\\V//e: where I document all my interactions with Jared Leto and the band, which includes his brother Shannon Leto. Here's a quote from the timeline to show you what I said there :

Luckily, I became close friends with a wonderful Italian woman named Mary who runs a 30STM fan page mostly focused on Jared at @love_30stm_echelon )) She was constantly posting her countless interactions with Jared and the band, and her main reflection was on that topic. Her interest was far less on the content or context of the interactions but the volume and consistency. Eventually I found that our convesations in her comments and her posts that tagged and told stories of me were very likely to be seen by Jared and the band, which made me feel more ambitious about properly describing my ideas so that they could get the picture better. We spoke at great length, oscillating between English and Italian.

Eventually I started to come up with a creative model. Imagine if she was secretly hired by the band and working on their staff, with her job mainly to support the Echelon (fan community) to psychologically adjust to their expeirences of wishing and wanting for social media interaction with them etc etc. I'm not trying to say that's true, but this creative imagination led me to construe of what it would mean if she was speaking to me in code to support her staff role. In other words, using the character she plays as a language for her goals. Responding to her with those ideas in mind seemed so much more productive in conversation both ways. She shifted to a way higher level. It was like being colleagues of a sort. Through all our many conversations and her posts, I felt a new deeper layer of meaning in my relationship between myself and Jared & Shannon. This created much more psychologial depth for me.

This led me to imagine what it would mean if all the other Echelon fan pages that are often interacting with Jared and Shannon were of this nature — secretly 30STM staff. Imagine if say, The Hive (the previous version of the social media platform which was so customized by Jared) was modelled so that he'd never interact with anyone but hired people playing characters that each symbolize an archetype which many people might fall into in one way or another — designed to help them process through these reflections. I found @mars_unseenvids was the easiest study. I realized that would make me the only exception to the rule, and imagining this made me wonder more creatively how I should view our interactions. For whimsy, I often kept that in my mind.

So here's what happened with Mary today. By the time I saw her message, I already thought that Jared was aware of the current crisis I'm going through because of my posts on this blog reaching him. That's been explained in another post on this blog that word got around to me from a friend (not Mary) that the issue was being looked at. I was honoured that it was being taken seriously and I had wanted to mention that here somewhere. That really meant a lot to me and I appreciate it <3 )). But anyway, so Mary came out and made reference to my posts on this blog. To paraphrase, she said, "I think right now Jared is going through a hard time. He seems to be feeling pretty down, and he's less available and overworked right now taking care of a problem with some bad guys that are giving him shit at the moment".

That's what I said in my last post exactly which I think is going on. She actually used the exact term "bad guys" which is interesting because I use that term and have mentioned it's something I associate with The 7 of 9 actually. Regardless, I responded to her saying that I think the same thing, and just wrote that on my website, and I think the bad guy is on his own staff. She mentioned to me that she'd love to help Jared right now if there was anything she could do, but her hands are tied, as she has no solution on her end for this problem. I responded that I feel the same way — I'm concerned if this effects Jared negatively, drains his time, or puts him in a bad position in any way, emotionally or otherwise. I told her, I'll be racking my brain for some way I can help. Since the situation seems to have at least one side of it which is about me, I felt responsible. That said, I'm not responsible at all for this issue. It's just that I felt a bit responsible even though I'm not, and felt like I'd appreciate being able to help.

I asked Mary how she knows this. I understand she is just posing as a fan who is not on their staff, so this was just to double check what the story was supposed to fictionally be as to how she knew of this situation mentioned on my website. She is Italian and wouldn't have read my posts. I believe she was informed by her team for the band, but that would be secret. So I just asked her just to see what she would say and she told me "I just felt it". So, supposing I'm mistaken and she's not a staff member, what happened is that an Echelon had an intuition here, which she calls a feeling in her way of putting it, and based on intuition, she urged me to understand that this situation is harming Jared. Either way, it's worth listening to her concerns.

So I've decided to sit down and lock into this issue for as long as it takes to get it resolved here, and I've done some work on the problem today.

Analysing What's Happening With This Enemy

Before I get into my solutions I've decided on so far, I'll run through some reflections I've had on just exactly what seems to be going on with this enemy. I personally think this enemy is on the band staff somehow. I've thought about it a lot, and here's what I'm getting from it. This person has very strongly motivated negative intentions towards me. Their 100% intention is to hurt me as much as they can — there's nothing there inside them that is unattached to that. All they want is for me to go down. That's because of a longterm grudge and being entangled with underground crime in a very entrenched way — it's a really long story actually how they developed this grudge. It was not my fault at all. This was a group and this one person from the harmful group joined 30STM staff in digsuise pretending to be on their team.

So here's how they've strategized the method : What they do is, they do their absolute top best at perceiving Jared's needs, as if high end professionals of serving his direction, his agenda, for anything to do with me, then guide me in that exact direction as if in service to 30STM but always in such a way so as to harm me as much as possible in the process, ideally making the whole thing into a disaster so that a) Jared's needs will be re-framed as negative, b) Jared's needs will be met poorly, along with mishaps that also harm him, c) I will be blamed for any harm caused in the process, d) or ideally I will be seen as a failure somehow or another at every step along the way, e) I will come to hate Jared or at least resent him in some way. The scheme is designed to stop me from accessing Jared's support because they are threatened by how much it humilates them for me to be supported so well.

So far Jared and Shannon's support has been enormous even without money as a part of the picture at all. One thing that has already made a big wave in the community is that when I started creatively defending Jared from false allegations, this served to humiliate this "bad guy" and his entire group because Jared's story was considered inspiring and relatable as a misunderstood and beautiful public figure, and I was compared with him. The rigorous standards for exploring someone's guilt or innocence in the face of false allegations put it to shame with the violators who had been doing similar things to me. Many things they had actively done against me in the community which decieved and violated so many people, now all those people could see that they were manipulated when they look at my example of defending Jared. Combined with the band's interactions with me showing love and respect, this caused positive hype around 30STM and turned UNITY LIFE into protection.

This technique never worked that well when I was defending Marilyn Manson, although that defence strategy through the arts may have lowered the dangers to me from this enemy by about 15% at best. People really love to hate Marilyn Manson and they know little about him in this community, and based on his controversial persona, they easily buy into manipulation which proposes say that I'm mentally ill which is proven by my affections for Manson's music and him as a person, and this shows I have a disgusting creepy dark side and I'm to be avoided and feared. That has worked on a lot of people, but Jared's persona and appearance is much easier to love. So immediately once I started defending Jared, it combined really well with my previous defence work to create something much more useful as a counter-argument for manipulation.

Keep in mind, this manipulation in the commuinty was not just being used to put me down, it was actively being used to cut me off from any resources that could keep me stable or keep me afloat in any way possible. It was life or death sometimes in a way, cause community can be grounding and supportive and we all rely on having access to resources, sharing, networking and options sometimes of that nature, but I was cut off from most.

That's just one example, but this enemy has foreseen much more could happen as the connection between me and 30STM escalates, for how well they could continue to support me, and how much that would put them to shame. They are afraid of things going well for me, so they are deeply invested in preventing me from succeeding with 30STM. That's why they've sent out their most impressive guy to actually get a job with the band.

How they do this, as I've mentioned in the previous post, is through psychic battery. Now, I understand that the idea that a person can cause psychic battery is known as delusion. I can explain myself, and I don't believe it is. It's a really long explanation, one that I've only just begun to offer in my previous posts. Essentially, teachings of Ayahuasca provide an ancient format for conceptualizing of these issues in a very different way than is done in the West. Although I understand this is put down in the West, I could offer this information compellingly so that it would actually seem really interesting. But I wouldn't put this kind of teaching of Ayahuasca on my main resources cause it can be very destabilizing for Westerners to explore these ideas without proper guidance from the medicine or some kind of a cultural background or method which can help condition them psychologically to process these kinds of views. But there are some beliefs in the West that could be mentioned here, such as the belief in black magic itself. Some people do believe in "witchcraft" even in the USA. And witchcraft is essentially what the medicine teaches.

Frankly, when someone is barraged with psychic attacks very severely in Ayahuasca, it's normally considered witchcraft which is taught as stemming from malpractice with certain potent yet dangerous plants of the Amazon in combination with extreme practices. Through my visions with Ayahuasca, I've understood how this type of thing can be done even outside of Peruvian plants and typical witchcraft and poisons related to Ayahuasca. It's a deep thing, and I'll give you an example of what I think it's like in the West sometimes : Christian prayer. It's my view that some Christians when they pray, they are praying with deep seated intentions of harm. They believe that dark powers and evil forces will consume their enemies through supposedly the power of God, or something like that, although this is viewed as an underbelly of God itself which works in their favour using violence. It could be related to notions of God's vengeance and wrath. Some see this as an idea to do with turning evil forces towards God's will as God commands all. They fail to recognize deeper truths of love and peace that were taught by Christ.

In these practices, they cause harms against others physically and they believe superstitiously that this renders these evil powers to use through prayer alone. Also, others can join with those who have done these extensive physical harms, and gain the powers by co-operation. The ones doing the physical harms to gain the powers imagine that others will always join as their minions to serve them, as part of the power. That's the kind of thing going on at CoSM Chapel of Sacred Mirrors when they pray. As a sidenote, on many occasions in earlier years, I have had dreams that were obviously a result of their prayers at thier branded CoSM Church. These dreams were extremely manipulative, designed to cause me to unwittingly fall into a trap through tricks of perception and emotion in the dream, and do things that seemed obviously dangerous, such as unblock CoSM and attempt to make contact with their staff. I never did this and saw right through it, but I was very deeply offended by their psychic assault. These psychic assaults have taken many countless forms in my life. They have been relentless, and now it's come to head now that they've joined 30STM staff.

Now I'll continue from the previous section to describe what it's been like for me going through this psychic battery from them, specifically to do with this staff member more recently. This problem has always been going on for such a long time. The more I've found Jared (and Shannon in toe with him) have been interested in me and my art, the more this has increased.

There have been times when the evil spell seemed to break but generally it has continued to bubble to the surface to cause trouble about every little thing to do with anything between me and Jared. The result of observing this patterns led me to write the paragraph before this accordion panel. I've seen it as an intrusion upon what might be considered a beautiful co-creative and positive energy between Jared, with healthy inspirations to align myself with him in ways that would be mutually beneficial.

It seems they take that beautiful co creative field between us, which they somehow get a grasp of what it is, and as I said before "making the whole thing into a disaster so that a) Jared's needs will be re-framed as negative, b) Jared's needs will be met poorly, along with mishaps that also harm him, c) I will be blamed for any harm caused in the process, d) or ideally I will be seen as a failure somehow or another at every step along the way, e) I will come to hate Jared or at least resent him in some way." But their ultimate goal as I mentioned is to fully cut me off from 30STM.

But there's more. After I started putting up these posts I started to feel it was much worse than ever. The most recent issue was that after my last post, I felt just plugged into the matrix, forced to be exposed to their battery in a very torturous way. It was sheer torture that day, and clearly the entire thing was just aggravating me about exposing the issue, trying to get me to do as they say. After this I will catalogue an indepth list of their instructions which I have felt battered and threatened into doing. I'm thinking about just following thier instructions now if that would help a lot.

But also just one more thing I want to share about before. I mentioned earlier that I've been having problems managing my weight and exercising. Well I've also been having the perception that this was caused by this enemy completely. I think they have some ability to cause a feeling of heaviness in my body and make me unable to move sometimes, and cause me to take actions like eating more. These would be considered my own issues, not attibutable to psychic battery, but it is my suspicion that it's been happening as a scheme to make me not wnat to model anymore, in such a way which would hurt my feelings and anger me.

As well, during my photoshoots, I've experienced a very heightened sense of this battery, and it's been giving me the impression as if Jared has been some kind of abusive force behind it specifically during photoshoots, and I think it was them and their tricks. Due to that, the quality of my modelling has lowered, and it's hard for me to enjoy modelling at all anymore. That's been getting worse, and now they've added that I can't enjoy my pictures anymore, even my favourites. The vibe's just not really there anymore, and they'd like that to look like it was just my own insecurities about myself but I must say, it's obviously their abuse and nothing to do with me.

There is more that I'd like to share about all this, but I think I'll leave it for another time. Sometime in the future I'd like to explain more somewhere about how exactly it is that I feel they are doing this. I believe that they have a system which can be exposed. This is a personal theory of mine about how legal action against these types of violators could work. It's loosely related to the legal idea tortious interference. In my understanding, I believe that this enemy has been fooled into falling into a lawsuit trap, by employing certain protected copyright trade secrets that have been specifically engineered for use in lawsuit capturing like this. It's not just tortious interference, it's a combination of factors, and it's only through certain methods that it can be legally used. Also, I'm not a lawyer, but this is just a theory I've been developing. Later I can talk about my ideas in the other Raw & Uncensored blog.

My Plan For How To Resolve This

In brainstorming what I can do to resolve this crisis, it has occurred to me that if the agenda of this enemy and 30STM's needs happen to be the same in some ways, that's very unfortunate and causes me a huge difficulty in sorting and processing how to go through things. I feel crunched and pushed on all levels about this, and certain that just following the instructions appears dangerous, premature, and likely to cause unfortunate complications, due to the battery involved. But if these needs are important to 30STM for sake of aligning a postiive future, it seems useful to try to make it a possibility. I'm currently devising if I can use these instructions for the good.

Here is a breakdown of the items that have been insistently demanded of me in psychic battery format, especially over the last days while I've been exposing this issue, but also in a longterm obvious agenda.

- Take my existing website for my business and completely restructure the fee structure. My rate will be very low, much lower than it's ever been, for the hour, but there will be the option of add-ons you can add onto the base rate, to provide the option for a flexible and create-it-yourself more personalized option of how my services will be rendered. For the base rate alone, we can just talk, and the main subject of our conversation will be negotiation of what add-ons you want, to personalize your experience. Now, for many reasons this kind of idea makes me very insecure and uncomfortable.

- Delete my Patreon where I sell my lingerie modelling photos, which pays my subscription to Dita Von Teese. Of course I model the lingerie of Dita Von Teese and some of the proceeds pay for me to be subscribed to her. But this will have to be completely deleted, or else just completely rebranded with all different tiers with not a trace of lingerie modelling anywhere on it. Then, reconnect the Patreon to UNITY LIFE, and a suggestion has been made that it could be tiers that pay for you buy with your Patreon subscription, stuff from The UNITY LIFE shop, for instance.

- Of course, keep all the lingerie completely permanently deleted from the instagram

- Also, stop modelling lingerie permanently, in any way, or through any venue.

Apparently, removing my Patreon, changing my instagram image and keying down my business could enhance my abilty to safely travel the USA / Canadian border, allowing me safe passage to at least visit for concerts, or whatever. I still don't think that would allow me to immigrate to USA to live there for a job or anything, but it could be convenient for them. It could also make my content on the instagram less controversial and more easy to process for a wider diversity of people, allowing 30STM more freedom to promote me as an artist they are working with, should they ever want to, even on a smaller scale such as even just spreading around gossip.

In order to get this under control, I'm thinking of pausing my work on art and The 7 of 9, and 16(2) now and other things I had planned, and devoting myself to a 2 week process to get this situatoin in order without an issue. Now, just that alone, that it has to be prioritized immediately because I've been under battery, is in itself a problem, and there has been the big problem that my lingerie posts were already deleted without explanation (which is a huge issue). But just to see if I could forge forward while minimizing the damage, here's my 2 week plan :

- Make a gateway page that introduces all Dita’s resources on a single page on UNITY LIFE, similar to the Timeline ://A\\rc)}’Hi\\V//e: for 30STM, runs through just about every UNITY LIFE Resource created that centers around them. This page would be a one stop shop for everything UNITY LIFE to do with Dita Von Teese, nicely synergized.

- Contact my subscribers who support me financially on Patreon for the modelling and offer them a bank of photos in a password protected space, with continued access to anything further that I produce, if i ever comes out again despite these horrible problems right now making it seem like it kinda won't. This would be in thanks for their support for so long and in apology for not offering any new modelling for the past month.

- Rebrand the patreon completely to no longer host or hint of any past lingerie modelling

- Create an artistic illustration of myself as a paper doll which can have Dita Von Teese lingerie added onto her body, to show the lingerie that I own, and offer a beautiful game to teach people which lingerie I have. For now, the art can be a quick starting point, but I'll eventually keep upgrading the quality of the artwork. This will be offered as a physical product on my shop for anyone who promises they are 22+ by filling out a form or something like that, I think. The doll will come in the mail with the link to access the photo bank. So you get the doll and the photos too and it's expensive. And you have to be old enough. That way it can be presented without controversy on instagram.

- Create a new pinned post for Kurt Cobain / NIRVANA which includes the 72 FACETS (IN 144) and something exciting about Foo Fighters for a cool upgrade, as a very hyper packed, overfull fan art carousel post for instagram that shows like a ton of the most relevant fan art I've done and the best I have to offer about these bands in particular. That will take a lot of work cause I probably have to do some writing for The 72 FACES (IN 144) at least, plus organize some FF stuff. Then make that my first pinned post. That leaves one pinned post open, and it can be for Dita Von Teese fan art. The third will continue to be for MM and 30STM combined.

Try changing my business around with this modular system and see what I can accomplish with that model. See if I get a decent form of money from it. Now that's the scariest part cause I worry that I will lose money, and losing ANY money right now really is make or break for me, so I'll have to try to finagle a way to do this where I can respond quickyl if I'm finding it's not successful after a short time testing it out. It's terrifying, but I can see what they've been driving at, so I'll see what I can do.

If doing all this becomes impossible to manage due to the battery, I will release the goal to get a job with 30STM and instead pursue other stars to ask them to hire me. In fact, just the idea to ask Krist Novoselić instead is starting to sound a whole lot fuckin better than THIS motherfuckin shit, but anyway, where I'm currently at is to give this a try because my heart is still set on doing my best to resolve this for Jared and 30STM. I'm feeling wonderful about them and the dream of working with them, and plus I know they have their hearts set on it too, and it feels wrong to put the brakes on the whole process. That said, I need a more immediate solution for money right now. I think maybe just my business, cause even contacting Krist at all with this plea for help, even if I asked him for a short term solution right now to help me get by, might take quite a while. Krist also is pretty slow to interact with, just as 30STM are showing me currently that they are. Frankly, I had a very different approach I wanted to take than this one, but I can tell the problems will keep assaulting if I don't follow these commands. It's just not up to me what I do with my body, my website, my instagram, or my life anymore. That's all. And once again if any of this happens to align with 30STM's interests, that's deeply unfortunate.

Conclusion

I hope this will help. This is kinda the response also to what Mary said, that Jared was going through a hard time. I just want to say to Jared if he gets this message, I'm so sorry to hear that if it's true. I hope I can help in some way, but I don't want to inadvertently make things worse. I'll be doing my best to help and not inadvertently contribute at all to the issues through how I handle it. But he knows that. Anyway I also want to say, I'll be tuning in with my favourite stars for their spiritual support in the issue too. If I feel I'm bending too much on the issue here and it's not healthy, or I've got some need to adjust my strategy, I'll make adjustments as the inspirations arrive. Once anyone reads this or just through spiritual love, it should come through with a wave of energetic support to assist me in this difficult time.

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