GOOD NEWS. I finally managed to recover the lingerie modelling posts. Yesterday it felt like the black magic curse was like say 75-80% cleared and I must say, I felt MUCH MUCH BETTER yesterday. I did receive a lot of abusive texts and there WAS problems at work (and one of them I almost want to post here, it was a very disrespectful job filling out my screening form for my counselling). But yeah, despite that, things were meshing well enough to keep things moving with work towards the rent, thanks to some previously established clients, while it felt like the evil cursed darkness was lifted mostly and I actually felt great. I really thought this was the result of progress on the other end of things to get this resolved with this staff issue. So, final end of the night after a good day, I just felt clear to restore those lingerie posts finally. And I was totally not surprised if there was a clearing of the staff issue which all day I had been feeling must have happened.
So when I put the posts back up, I still felt really bad about the latest couple posts, especially the second last one which I had already said ws good but not amazing actually and was part of an intermedia art process about my own perception and revealing the image through perceptual arts in a stage by stage process. That one I still don't like, so I might delete it soon which means that I have to also delete my 30STM intermedia stage by stage piece which was loosely (though not directly) related to this other series. And I DEFINITELY don't feel confident to model right now due to these curses, even though I would always do that in my life very happily. But at least it's a step, and this resolves the one problem that I didn't have Dita fan art ready to replace it, and now my Dita fan art is taken care of on my page. It's downgraded to looking like something I used to do and dont' even do anymore but at least one would likely imagine, I might do it again anytime and this could be just a lag for any reason. And I got some likes on those posts from a cool person.
Then too I noticed some extra posts that were taken down with the lingerie were very revealing about this enemy I've been talking about and what their motivations were. Actually this is such a direct diss against NIRVANA plus totally shows who they are, if they didn't like these ones. Like I mentioned before it was a few extras with it including the Ayahuasca tradition posts, and then THIS ONE you see here. See this custom piece is about NIRVANA's album how the band made a bold punk statement totally equating homophobes with pedophiles. Well to me this really is exposing that this was probably caused by CoSM cause like I said before they are so mysoginistic and against women's bodies and sexuality. Well guess what else. They're also huge homophobes, you know. That's definitely the issue sometimes with the church, but I'll tell you a story : Did you know Delvin Solkinson is personally a huge homophobe? He didn't used to be a homophobe in the earlier days when I was friends with him before he got integrated with CoSM but once he joined them he became homophobic massively. In the old days he used to tell me he was essentially occasionally bi, like beautifully so, you know? Like this was naturally an appeal to say that to women close to him.
Then once CoSM came into the deal he started getting WILDLY offended whenever I'd mention that I thought I could detect a minor or major bromance between him and a guy. He would respond "I'm not GAY, alright?" I found this alarming because he had previously identified minorly bi and bisexuality is not the same as homosexulaity entirely and this sounded like such a stigmatizing way of putting it. Then this escalated actually with me intuitively baiting him to get more information about this in the later stage of our so-called friendship after he had been plotting against me for years and was about to drive me into poverty on a mass scale to try to end my life or at least get me harmed and exploited, which he did.
Right before that happened I started into him like "Ya know, I think in this stage before you put all commitment in and finalize marriage with anyone you should consider marrying this one guy on CoSM staff who I can tell there's been a longterm romance between you and him actually going and I feel the two of you would be more compatible actually" and he COMPLETELY FLIPPED so much more that he's not GAY. I kept saying "I am in no way saying you're GAY, can't you cleanly communicate?! You you said years ago that you're minorly bi, and I'm just saying if it's the right person for you who cares the gender." and he just kept hammering this stigma rich "I'm not gay" like a retard who can't understand English.
That was funny of me to say that (lol). You know, at the time, I was not even thinking of it as a serious issue that they do arranged marriages at CoSM in this dark freaky way they do and I was just aware that it would be fortuitous for him at CoSM of course to marry someone from there (lol), and this guy was from CoSM. But considering what massive homophobes I see they are there, that was seriously funny what I said (lol). Haha, later this dawned on me just how hilarious it was what I said to him considering their bullshit (lol).
Like yeah if you check out their art, when Alex Grey does the paintings of sex and conception and all that, you can see there's no room for same sex there. I would never be surprised at all if they've actually said something against same sex unions outwardly. I'm shocked that any LGBTQIA+ community would ever be drawn to CoSM but you know, they have black magic and witchraft so that explains it I think.
I later talked to a gay friend of mine who used to do this gorgeous visionary erotic poetry about homosexual romance for an adorable art piece he was working on, and he told me that Delvin was completely dismissive, triggered, and rude about that stuff and really put it down, then ex-communicated him for having submitted it to an art curation thing with Delvin. So that confirmed the homophobia there.
No yeah that post is so not going anywhere. Oh and just so you know, the way the black magic got me to delete that was by hammering me that it's visually ugly. Then yeah, I might really just delete some of the latest lingerie ones for now until we get the rest of the 25% of the problem or whatever's left resolved, but at least it has another 30 days to be restored.
And by some instagram glitch, I couldn't restore my reels unfortunately, so there is some loss. But I have those backed up, so what I can do is repost them later and I think I'll mention in those captions what took place and that there was black magic against my posts. I'm finding this writing process here has brought out a lot of clarity for me against CoSM and I'm really comforre, table speaking this truth of what they've been doing to me here, so I might just go more forefront about it sometime.
But also too, just want to say, some might find it interesting that I think CoSM has actully directly banded with Jared's enemies who spin false narratives against him actually. I never said, but intuitively a long time ago I got the impression strongly that they have been not just abstractly but DIRECTLY in cohort with those particualr enemies of Jared. And I'll be honest, I thought that was fortuitous for me in the end, because it's an advantage if Jared's regular motives to stop lies against him being fabricated with malicious intent as slander just so happens to conicide with stopping my own enemies as a directly unified thing.
Cause actually I see it the other way sometimes that I'm helping Jared this way, but of course also he's helping me, and this is good that it brings us together, but more importantly that there can be help here. Because I know for sure that Jared's not the only person who's been longterm interested in suing CoSM, so if there's a coalition working already against them, which I think there is, that's just graceful if that coalition can be turned against Jared's enemies. Then if we get that sued out, then the result is so much better for me as well in Jared land where I spend my days, ya know? Like Jared's world is less darkened then, and I live in that space normally in my life, so that's really good for me. And so many others too.
I just wanted to add that. I literally see it as that kind of a fortuitous arrangement actually. I think it's so helpful to everything. Funny thing really is, it's so good for us that you'd think we'd want to arrange it ourselves, but this is just their usual bullshit to be like that about it (lol). They do for us all by themselves, what total retards they are (lol).
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