Diary of a Glambassador ◊ Blog Entries Of My Ideas About My Creative Journey of Modelling

Here are a couple of selfies which I worked on based on recent studies for an intermedia process piece to do with my lingerie modelling. The first in flattering light with fresh makeup — and the second, unflattering light with worn makeup. When I removed my glasses from my look, I had a massive shift to my perception, and I've found this to be symbolic of the eyes and human vision — just as the glasses were symbolic of my visual search for the truth of the nature of reality, when I find it does not appear clearly for me. Removing the glasses has been so symbolic, as a real life perceptual experience. Once they were removed from my pictures, I noticed that the real life version of my face is incredibly — so exceedingly — sooooo much more beautiful than any photo. I really am very beautiful, but I can't believe it now with my new hair — I'm now a show storefront model (lol). I felt my image was fully butchered by any picture, AND butchered TF by any face filter I could find. Nothing could measure up and it was very psychologically disturbing for me, but I was hopeful. I decided to study and resolve this as an art piece. With study, I made the decision to modify my photos to resemble as close to what my eyes see in that kind of lighting and makeup as possible. 

This post wanted to also be put in my manifestation diary so in order to not double up my posts, I've decided to provide a link here to that entry. You can find it this button below :

Lately I've been having a little trouble with gut health and sodium, feeling bloated and just going through temporary health issues. This has afforded me a perfect change to discuss some of my big ideas about modelling. In the micro level, just at this particular time, I've had to abandon posting a lot of photos to instagram as often as I'd like with lingerie modelling because I just didn't feel very confident or comfortable in my body right now, which is quite normal during a health issue. I posted some, but just deleted them after, cause it really wasn't the spirit. But normally I really was trying to always post these every 5 or 6 posts. I guess that plan is thrown out, and I should have known that would happen. 

Right now I'm feeling very connected to some ideas of how I'd like to see my look improve. I always do have longterm visions for my looks, but right now I'm especially interested in some short term ideas.