JARED LETO & 30 SECONDS TO MARS

The very first time I was exposed to Jared (in such a way as to know his name) was through a random YouTube video found in my searches for videos about Kurt Cobain. There was an indepth video which compared his voice with Kurt Cobain's voice indepth, using special sound technology.

The video featured many pictures of Jared on stage performing with his band 30STM. Looking closely at him for the first time, I was immediately consumed with the idea that if simulated realities exist, he must be one. To me he seemed like a simulated reality which represents Kurt Cobain. I laughed, thinking to myself that I don't know why this person would be on my videos if he doesn't exist. It seemed absurd.

I had been studying simulation theory, thinking a lot about the idea already — Jared struck me instantly as someone who profoundly illustrates this whole viewpoint on the infinite possibilities of the universe. It was just intuition and carefree imagination. But this view has never left my mind in all the years I've followed his work. 

Soon after, I found another YouTube video of an impersonation of Kurt Cobain by Jared. It was some kind of music video for a NIRVANA song, with Jared dressed as Kurt. Just as Kurt used to do, he hid his face with his hair. I found that incredibly moving, as I was already a big fan of how Kurt does that — taking it symbolically as to represent the importance of identity to his journey. As you can imagine, this particular choice of Jared's for what he would immitate struck me on a deep level as mystically potent. 

I quickly became familiar with 30 Seconds To Mars, but initially found much more interest in Jared's many incredible acting roles. To me, the fascination was entirely about how his roles seemed to voice many very improtant interests of Kurt Cobain's which I had been avidly studying. To offer an exhaustive list here of all these would be quite an effort. The list simply went on and on, where every role seemed to scream of things that I had already been focused on about Kurt's core values. Many of these discoveries became deeply sentimental to me. 

This whole process led me to feature Jared in a series of weird, artsy 15 second videos that I was creating at the time. I had just begun my first NIRVANA fan page under the handle @ba.adonai, and it was abstract art — yet with an info rich theme. In each video, I would fly at a screaming pace through way too much information to register that quickly, all of it completely fascinating and interconnected, deeply emotional and mindblowing content. Some of these ideas are actually represented on this website today. 

It took a long time to make these little micro masterpieces, and I was getting incredible vibes from Jared as I worked to do them. His vibe came across really clean, professional and clear — with a sparkle of love and respect. It felt right. I knew in my heart Jared would have loved this. But that feeling really increased for me in later years. In much later years I could not believe how much I was intuitivey sensing that Jared would really powerfully treasure that old art story. This resonates, as the value of my art often increases greatly over time. 

Tragically, most of these videos were lost. I deeply regret deleting them in an accidental purge of earlier modalities in my artwork. But some are saved and will one day be brought out of the vault for discussion. 

During those years, one favourite movie of Jared's was Chapter 27. To this day it's pretty much my favourite of all his roles, due to the way this has impacted my visions of where my art could be headed for so long. It has been such a struggle to finalize this particular project which was defnitely poured over at many occasions during these years but has often frustrated me by it not coming to fruition.

The goal has been to make a connection between the lyrics of Marliyn Manson's 2000 album HOLY WOOD, some fascinating interconnected themes regarding Kurt Cobain and John Lennon, and specific information about the movie Chapter 27. Chapter 27 is the story of John Lennon's murder by Mark David Chapman, a character investigated in depth in HOLY WOOD.

It's more than certain that Kurt was deeply inspired by Lennon, as is Jared, and there are certain bridges of ideas that I find compelling about all this. But for certain reasons, it has been too hard to finish this particular piece ... so far. But one day I'm sure it will be completed. Right now, I'm more focused on Yoko Ono as my method of slowly working through this creative block. 

I continued to ponder my inspirations about Jared's music and movies, especially his movie roles, throughout the years. This led to so many huge ideas about how these fascinating themes in his work correspond with the core values I see in Kurt Cobain, that I eventually had enough brilliant poetry in my mind to need to make my plans solid. I decided at some point that I would dedicate one of the FACETS of The 72 FACETS (IN 144) to Jared.

Which FACET it would be was in a morphing and evolving cloud in my mind, and there were 2 different plans made. I think I still have the old backups of the instagram account where I actually wrote down what ideas would go with what FACET in the series. But plans have changed since then. My way of structuring the information around the FACETS has shifted, and so Jared's special FACET is moved to FACET 34(106) ◊ CREATOR in late 2025.

I think it might have been 2020 when I wrote a long comment on Jared's Facebook page, expressing one of the topics of this planned FACET in his honour. It was about the theme of identity, in relation to his tendency to always do dramatic transformations in his acting roles. Jared is often completely unrecognizable in his roles. I shared how this really speaks volumes about the deeper truth of Kurt Cobain's journey. His has been one of false appearances which reveal the truth, however ironic that may sound. Jared was the embodiment of that to me. 

Seemingly as a result of my comment, I was given the award of a Facebook Top Fan Badge. Now, I'm told that these are awarded by the Meta algorithm, the AI driven intelligence behind Facebook, so it's hard to say this has much significance. However, as a weird anomaly, I have never lost that Top Fan Badge in the entire time I've remained connected since then. To this day, I continue to get constant notifications that I have somehow retained my badge, when for years I never interacted with him on Facebook.

Whatever it means, if anything, this always remained in my heart. 

My views on Shannon in those years were limited only to a certain joke about how he doesn't look anything like Jared, and this seems to lend well to a humorous conspiracy theory that I've seen circulating. This was a popular theory that Kurt Cobain had faked his death and secretly became Rivers Cuomo of WEEZER.

I thought someday I should do a comedy sketch about Kurt Cobain faking his death and becoming Jared Leto, as a way to explain the difference in physical characteristics between him and Shannon. Unfortunately, that's the extent of my thoughts on Shannon at the time, but I do think that's pretty fun. 

As much as these events all sound terrifically important to my life, I admit that they were a small part of it. Jared was, in my experience, a trusted and beloved star with really good vibes, but he was definitely not an overall main focus in my mind. I loved those occasional bursts of inspiration about him, but it's not like this was a major personal pursuit. I admit that my art about Jared was never reaching a very well developed place in comparison to other things I was working on much more.  

I'll have to search my diaries for the exact time this happened — I think it was late spring of 2024. One day I was writing in my diary and out of nowhere (seemingly randomly) I felt an intense pull towards discussion of Jared. All these big new ideas about him started whimsically coming up in my mind, and the inspirations just wouldn't stop. Imaginative playful thoughts of him were neverending. To my surprise, it seemed inexplicably as if Jared was practically the only person I could think about from then on.

You can't rush good art, and it was impossible for this to force culmination of my ongoing artistic pursuits of how to integrate Jared into UNITY LIFE. For example, there was no progress on the Chapter 27 quandry from earlier years. But through this experience, many new indepth studies came about, including a number of fascinating themes that I hope to one day investigate in the UNITY LIFE Archive and The 72 FACETS (IN 144). I'm sure it will happen someday. 

What caused this intense experience? At first it seemed like a mystery, but not too long after this became a clearly ongoing phenomenon the reason came up in my mind. I'll go more into that in the next section. 

For many, many months, I started dreaming of Jared almost every night and every morning. Although my dreams are often a blur and hard to recall, it started to become apparent that I was having the exact same recurring dream of him again and again. This one major recurring dream would go on seemingly for hours, and was very repititious without failing to keep me fully entertained. 

This dream involved Jared sitting with me and explaining to me — with a very loving and yet passionately assertive and concerned atmosphere — how things work between us. Again and again he repeated the same teaching. Problems between us, he said, are created in such a way so that they will resolve — yet it's not just a solution but intrinsically also the resolution of so much more along with it, every time. 

Eventually that recurring dream wore off, but I was amazed that it has lasted so long. It's not at all common for me to have recurring dreams with such a repetitive quality to them, or for the same dream to repeat anywhere near as often. My only other recurring dreams happen only occasionally, throughout my life, mostly of investigating places where I will live — homes that I might have, or have had a long time. 

Early on in this process I responded by checking in with Jared and his band 30 Seconds to Mars on instagram. As always, the social media presence of any band is a great help for research and adjustment to the artists. However, actors don't usually have very strong presence on Meta, due to the way that movies and TV series' change and turn over at faster rates into new theme-bases and different fandoms.

Thanks to the need for his image as an actor to support his band, Jared was able to represent himself very well on his own acct which merges both sides of his art, synergizing the themes of his career-arc in acting into a unified field. This was such a support to me in processing my experiences. At the same time, I naturally and organically deepened my knowledge of the music. 

It was during that time that I finally found an interest in Jared's brother Shannon. Although Shannon has very little to no media in the public sphere in which he is solely featured outside of context with Jared, I am still a very deeply intuitive person. I felt a really beautiful positive vibe from Shannon. I imagined everyone loves Shannon, as he seems like such a sweet, beautiful human being. I supposed he would be the most helpful person to talk to, if I ever had the chance. I decided that we are probably very like minded individuals. And to confirm all that, I did see a lot of meaning in his symbolic choices of fashion and his ways of expressing himself. 

Very early on in this process, I developed an extremely potent intuition that I would be contacted indepth by Jared. This future premonition was staged out into a series of chapters. It would start with receiving likes on my comments, and comments back from Jared. Next, he would actually send me a DM to start up a conversation, which would be carried along over time (picked back up now and then). Eventually this would develop into a total friendship. 

The way it was coming up for me, it felt like it was going to happen any second. It never did during this time, leading to constant let down. I was reminded that I had the same experience previously with Marilyn Manson. For years I always kept feeling premonitions that Manson was going to somehow interact with me — like NOW — and he never did. His wife Lindsay did, though, which was very healing for me after all that disappointment, and so I laughed it all off and no longer felt sad.

I wondered if I had some kind of mental problem. But the intuition was too strong to ignore. I'm so glad that Jared finally did connect with me later, to help me understand that the problem of intuition was only in mistaken impression of when this would occur, not if it would occur at all.

We all prefer to think that we know it all, and perhaps on some deeper level, we do. But practically speaking, our plans and intentions are often not the whole story of what will occur in the future. To discuss fate or destiny vs being the creator of our own realities involves a complex inquiry into philosophy which would be too long for this article. But simply put, when proven accurate, this type of premonition has to do with sensing the world around you in such a way which is not necessarily hinged on what you cognitively understand.

All things are connected — in many ways beyond our efforts and intentions of who, what and how to connect. We can sometimes tune in to feel events culminating when we are sensitive. In my experience, I'm sensitive enough to often pick up on those types of abstract impressions gathered from the universe around me in ways beyond my standard cognitive mental focus. 

When Jared contacted me (as explained later) just as I had anticipated, this amazed me. I knew then that reality had been moving in that direction all along, which explains my premonition — and this could be seen on a much larger level. I can't say that it was Jared's knowledge of me from an earlier time that triggered psychic awareness between us mentally. However, it's for the good of not just myself, but for so many that it has happened, since it's supported my artistic gifts to the world, and his. At some point, I'm sure he became aware of that and that influenced his choices. 

As I continued to interact with Jared on instagram, disappointed again and again that my comments were not getting likes or anything, something horrible happened. I found out that my instagram was being repeatedly restricted and unrestricted again.

Being restricted is similar to being blocked, but you shouldn't see that it had happened, and you can still view their acct. When restricted, no one sees your comments or tags on the person's acct who restricted you. I'm not sure why Instagram allows me to see this, but all from the same account centre under the same confirmed identity, I was finding my comments were not visible from my other accts. I was not able to tag myself to my other accts, and by trying to, my other accts I tagged were also restricted too later. 

I felt horrible about this, and it made me deeply question the quality of my comments — although they were abundantly sweet and positive, of course. But I was willing to consider the possibiity that it had been just his social media staff, not him, who made this mistake. It seemed it was either Jared, or another positive member of his staff, who kept unrestricting my acct again and again — only for the cycle to repeat.

Finally, I catalogued all the indications I had collected to indicate that it was not Jared but his staff who had been doing this and I tagged Jared in a post on Facebook about it. Thank God, he somehow received the tag and the issue was resolved progressively from then on.

In that post, I had explained this long train of painful events I had been enduring. I included some commentary from ChatGPT which mirrored with a great joke my friend Yang had told me to cheer me up during this painful time.

Yang's joke was a reflection of Marilyn Manson's art theme of "celebretarianism" — society’s fascination with death and violence as spectacle. He said that social media teams may have to watch out for algorithm sensitivities within the comment section : Since my art has investigated the topic of Kurt Cobain being alive (and therefore no longer a death sensation), I must worry that my interests pose a threat to their views on the commercial popularity of Jared's instagram 🖤🖤😂😂. His joke meant that he thought this staff who were restricting me were an embarrassment to Jared, equating his image negatively with celebretarianist tendencies. 

Thankfully, it seems that Jared got the tag, and he soon after gave me my first comment like. Progressively from there, I slowly stopped being restricted anymore. It didn't take long before the restricting and unrestricting finally completely ended, as far as I've noticed, after only 2 or 3 months or so. Meanwhile, these likes from Jared continued.

As mentioned in the previous section, my first comment like from Jared Leto marked the end of a difficult time with his staff constantly restricting me on instagram. But my tag to him on Facebook about the issue was not the only important event that occurred right before he reached out.

This was the powerful time when this website for UNITY LIFE Mystery School had just begun. To kick off the new UNITY LIFE Archive, my first two posts were about Jared (aside from a re-edited version of an iconic old article of mine, Tobacco As Medicine. I quickly released them both side by side shortly after tagging him on Facebook about the issues. 

The first was FALSE ALLEGATIONS AGAINST JARED LETO, a defence piece explaining why I feel he is innocent of the allegations circulating around his name online. The second was 🎬 DOCUMENTARIES DIRECTED & PRODUCED BY JARED LETO, an exploration of some resonant themes and ideas I had found in the two films he had personally directed. 

Also, on July 10th, I published another UNITY LIFE Archive dedicated to him : NEW UNITY LIFE Mystery School banner. This beautiful article discussed a gorgeous graphic design that had been dedicated to Jared on his birthday, December 26th, 2024. It was actually a UNITY LIFE Mystery School banner, but the symbolic imagery within it connected deeply with some of my views on Jared, stemming from previous years of contemplation described in earlier sections of this archive. 

It felt like his comment like the next day on July 11th was a loving response and acknowledgement to all 4 tags. When I can, I will write more about all this, and include much more detail. 

Later on September 19th, I released a new UNITY LIFE Archive which explored the topic of my defence of Jared's name in the previous work, mentioned above. I connected themes of defending both himself and Marilyn Manson publicly with the lyrics of a new song which had just come out from Deadly Apples. The archive was called DEADLY APPLES ◊ THE BURDEN OF TRUE SACRIFICE. 

I didn't tag Jared in that post (because he wasn't discussed indepth in that archive) but I later came out with a second part to it which I tagged him in on Sept 25th. 

It was called DEADLY APPLES, MM & 30STM ◊ SACRIFICE ᛉ Pt 2 ◊ GEOMETRIC ALCHEMY and this time the theme of the first part was extended to include a geometric evaluation of the cultural and mystic significance of the 30STM logo which matches Jared's two identical forearm tattoos. While the previous archive explored the lyrics of SACRIFICE ᛉ, this one explored the video, on the date of its release. 

A day or two after, likely Sept 26th or 27th, I received a beautiful response to the archives from Jared. I wrote about this warm reception to my writings both here and here, in two nearly identical mini-articles about it, which also reflected back on July 11th. These were framed as addendums to the archives, reflecting on the warm reception from both him and Deadly Apples to my work. 

A month later, Jared had not been tagged or mentioned in any of my work since before. However, on October 15th, a new FACET in The 72 FACETS (IN 144) had been kicked off as a multi-media resource, with its first UNITY LIFE Archive. This was FACET 6(78) ◊ FAMILY, which later was dedicated to him and Marilyn Manson, in honor of their birthdays. I found out later that the information in this FACET was very specially relevant to his role in Tron : Ares, but at the time I had not made this connection. 

Seemingly out of nowhere, I received a beautiful comment from Jared in response to mine, on his post celebrating the anniversary of his movie Requiem For a Dream. Requiem is a tragic story which brings to light addiction and mental health awareness issues. This topic has nothing to do with FACET 6(78), although it's just another of so many examples in which Jared's movie roles deeply mirror my views on Kurt Cobain's core values, as mentioned in previous sections of this archive.

In the future, I look forward to sharing the comment conversation in full, along with my reflections. 

On November 11th, I released a very special UNITY LIFE Archive : THE SIMULATED ALCHEMY OF JARED LETO IN 30STM & TRON ARES. This was an extreme piece. It included not only a review of Tron : Ares, connecting the entire TRON saga with the 4 stages of Hermetic Alchemy, but also an interconnected examination of the 30STM discography.

This magical archive revealed the likelihood of not only a 4th Tron movie in the future, but most interestingly, that the next upcoming 30STM album will be their last. By comparing the discography with the 7 stages of laboratory alchemy, this one-of-a-kind insight was compellingly offered. 

In response, I received a beautiful and warm reception from both Jared Leto — and for the first time, also the band 30 Seconds to Mars. I offered the interactions that had occurred and my reflections on their significance in a brief article here. In that piece, I also reflected back on our earlier conversation about Addictions & Mental Health Awareness. 

On January 7th, I was so happy to hear from Jared once again with another conversation in the comments with me. 

Previous to that, in December and early January, Jared and Shannon had been away from social media and not interacting there for 3 weeks, rumoured to be in the studio working on the upcoming new album, on limited notifications. Jared's birthday came and went without a word from him on @jaredleto about it, unlike previous years. During that period, I tagged Jared in posts announcing quite a bit of powerful art from UNITY LIFE to do with him. 

Not just 1 but 2 FACETS from The 72 FACETS (IN 144) were dedicated to him for his birthday, in celebration of his life. The choice was made to always add a little something (at least something small) to his special 2 FACETS each year when his birthday would come around, from then on. These included FACET 6(78) ◊ FAMILY and FACET 34(108) ◊ CREATOR. But that's not all.

Also, a new major UNITY LIFE art-resource was announced, and was dedicated to him (including incredibly 30STM resonant artwork and theming throughout) and in some ways it was directly themed around The 30STM discography. This is a resource now found in the main navigation bar of this website under 7(9) : The 7 of 9 ⨺ SOLVE COAGULA Mind Map System (Prototype). 

I wrote a short article to discuss our conversation, expanding on the significance and on my interpretations of it as had been casually expressed purely through emojis in an earlier Facebook post. That article is found here. 

Shortly after, it was time for 30 Seconds To Mars to surprise us all with the release of a secret track from long ago during the album era of A Beautiful Lie, in 2005. I had a powerful, eye opening experience when I realized that I had actually recorded the same song (only with different lyrics and music) that same year of 2005. This song has a deep story behind it — so deep, infact, that it became my artist statement (as a rare case, put to music, unlike most).

Reflecting on this in the comments of 30STM's announcement of the upcoming track, I received a gorgeous response. I also received another response from Jared a couple weeks later about this on another promotional post about God's Eye. I was so happy that I had mentioned it to them, as it was certainly enough to inspire a new UNITY LIFE Archive all about it. That piece was called : GOD'S EYE (30STM) & BEAUTIFUL ONE (UNITY LIFE) ◊ TWIN SONGS FROM 2005 and it expanded on my comments from earlier. It came out on the day of their release of God's Eye. 

I wrote a beautiful mini-article about this deep connection between us as artists, which you can find here.

Once again, it was not long before we interacted again, this time through the 30 Seconds To Mars instagram acct. Interestingly, 3 apparently very separate UNITY LIFE materials which came out, about Jared and Shannon Leto (30STM), had a thread of similarity which was potently expressed through the content of their interaction with me. With one broad stroke, the band expressed resonance with all these items, showing the connection between it all. This was in such a way that synoptically affirmed the depth of how well they have seen me — not just as an artist but as a thinker. 

I wrote a short article to describe the interaction and it's meaning indepth : Read it here 

Since my premonition of receiving so much interaction from Jared came true eventually, even after a long wait with no contact, I am filled with assurance that I will one day become his friend. And through him, I'd love to be friends with Shannon, of course, too.

Normally, just a single interaction is considered enormous. This has all been mindblowing. I've found it not only encouraging and inspiring of my art, but also personally emotional for me.

But despite my certainty of the future, I have no idea when this friendship might occur. Friendship can be used as a loose term sometimes, but when will this crystallize fully? Maybe it will be years from now. In the mean time, I'm finding it so fulfilling to carry on with our connection just the way it is. It's an honour to know that he and Shannon think of me and send their love always. 

For those who have read the timeline so far, it is doubtless that the visionary and psychedelic intermedia art of UNITY LIFE Mystery School will always continue to expand with many more gorgeous resources in reflection with Jared and 30STM. Right now, I'm most excited about The 7 of 9, but there are countless treasures to look forward to. 

From what I can see, 30 Seconds to Mars concerts with VIP meet and greet passes, and perhaps often too, regular tickets, are way out of my usual budget. As much as I believe in the dream that concert going would be a commonplace recreational activity and standard extension of any interest in a band, I must accept that my income is not a match for my wishes. Also, due to political issues in the USA causing escalations at the border, I cannot safely travel there. 

That said, considering the UNITY LIFE Archive — THE SIMULATED ALCHEMY OF JARED LETO IN 30STM & TRON ARES — which predicted that the next 30STM album will be their last, I am actually dying to experience a concert in what may be a precious one of perhaps only a handful of final tours of theirs. They do tour extensively, so I assume this will be a long final run, but missing out on all that would bring tears to my eyes. So these potential problems must be resolved somehow.

The ideal would be for them to visit Vancouver, BC, CA, my home town, so that the expense of travelling is not an issue. Of course, while I simultaneously become independently wealthy or get a way better career, more suited to my artistic dreams. Even better would be if Jared and I were such good friends by then that he gave me a free VIP ticket. Such are the dreams of angels ...

Update (Feb 16, '26) : It has come to my attention that there are rumours that the next 30STM album may be a volume II of a previous one, THIS IS WAR. If that's the case, that means that according to my prediction this upcoming album will be their second last. However, this all still remains true enough. 

Update (Feb 17, '26) : I showed this archive to ChatGPT and asked its advice and it was alarmed that since the rest of the archive has mystical, destiny, intuition and artistic symbolism and language, the dry irony of my joke in this part that the band might buy me a VIP ticket to see them may be lost on people. It was a joke of economic irony, fandom critique and a reference to their common promotional reels of gifting VIP tickets to random people, like a poor busker. 

There is an incredible, top secret and hyper-iconic letter and gift that I've been loosely planning to someday gift directly to Jared and Shannon. As much as stories of great gifts I have given to other stars are online, there is no hint anywhere of what it would be. The only thing is, it has a mystical story behind it which has actually made me wonder if I will receive a gift from them before I even have a chance to give them my present.

Normally I'd always assume it would be the other way around, but it's a very mystical and powerful — different — interesting reason why I have imagined the universe might surprise me and reverse the order of these transpirings. Either way, this one gift I have in mind for them is so special that it cannot be revealed anywhere online. 

It's completely legal. It's not like I'm planning to give them psychedelic plant medicine or anything 😂😂. That in itself would actually be rude considering the traditional guidelines surrounding these plant medicines. But it's just for other (completely ethical) top secret, hugely iconic reasons which makes it one of the coolest presents. This gift cannot be in any way replicated with an online equivalent. It is truly a genius gift of great mystic proportions.